It's time to go hard and fill your cup up with what you need. Give yourself the love you need. You've spent enough energy on failed love. Where love was never returned to you. Emotionally you've left emotionally drained. What you need to understand is the love you are looking for so desperately from others you have to be willing to give it to yourself. It is hard to receive from others the things you are not willing to give yourself. If you don't feel worthy enough to give yourself love and forgiveness and acceptance. Why should anyone give you what you don't feel you deserve? You've wasted so much time loving people that never left once of love for you. Now it is time to go hard for yourself and fill your own cup.