11 MAY 2020

10 MAY 2020

19 FEB 2019 · what goes on some times in your mind but you cant say on that very moment. Lyrics As i look into the mirror The past reflects, windows breaks Time stops as i introject Who i am, who was i? Just a guy whose in pain The fog of memory parts its way A howling dog barking at the moon That moon is you, so far away Now the sky and ground shift Fell from grace When up is down Tears cant fall from my face And im to blame The battle rages when it should be over They say the winner writes history But who the hell wins when hearts are broken but i write these verses to say im sorry Because the ghost of him And the ghost of her Stand in the way of tommorow And each inflection Is a bend of knee That i should have taken yonder As the past fades intertwined with everything i left behind It is in the now that i see the castle crumble As words escape you They hide inside me I should have known Id be my enemy Theres a birdge and a gap And a river and a trap As i try to cross i fumble Emotion spilling out while i stumble Then i realise that in the here and now Some scars are fully covered As ink in the vain Turned pain to gain I can tell you that you name was always raised high above me Worshiped , thinking about you, im never lonely Thats the power you have Picking up what was down Molding a smile from a frown Thats why you wear the crown As we near the end of this story Let me tell you im sorry Begging down on my knees, Your lips. Your smile is glory

24 JAN 2019 · the Cynic in rehab explores the concept of self value and change for others versus change for himself

20 JAN 2019 · pilot episode where the cynic describes an encounter at a cafe that ko-ed him