19 APR 2020 · This is what I'm doing with my time now, listening to my Self. Instead of listening to podcasts, I put my attention on here and now. You can do the same!

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11 JUL 2019 · In this Episode I talk about a particular specialized body centered therapy and cognitive therapy also. This has helped me a great deal even though I've been attending this kind of therapy for only a year and 10 months. In my opinion, it is better than any other therapy that I've received, because it addresses the body, my body! Of which I've felt not much attachment or nor affection, nor particular concern. Witness my starving my body and under appreciating what it has done for me. So somatic experiencing is a way of building a foundation upon which I myself can live and understand myself. For those of you who have experienced it or who have done darm, you know exactly what I'm talking about. I sincerely hope that it gets more awareness of this revolutionary and meaningful therapy. Also I talked about anorexia and how it can be used as a way of avoiding internal feelings and even though it involves food or a lack of enough food in my diet, it really is about control and attempting to exert power in my life. This may or may not be true for yourself or someone else who you know that is struggling with anorexia. If it helps you to understand this illness, hearing what I have to say about it, then that can only be a good thing. I have been attempting to do my best and practice the principles that I've absorbed from books I've read about spirituality and about right relationship with family and friends. So this episode talks a little about what I am doing as I attend counseling, learn about myself, stay aware of what I am doing or why I am doing what I do. This is a learning journey for myself and maybe I'm the only one who is meant to hear this but if it does help you oh, that's great.

10 JUL 2019 · In this episode, I continue from where I left off on episode 36 and treat you to some background noise of rumble strips. Also we welcome our newest sponsor, Water. And I come to a decision to cease recording while I am driving my car at speed. Because, driving and itself should be a full-time job and command all my attention. By recording and driving at the same time, I'm dividing my attention and causing myself more tension and this taxes myself and my ability to maintain focus on what's going on around me.

8 JUL 2019 · and it's episode I talk more about my personal history, living in Phoenix for nearly 10 years in the mid-1980s to mid 1990s, before returning to Iowa. Also my autism spectrum disorder and ADHD diagnosis.

7 JUL 2019 · okay, I rambled on too long and ran out of time 1 second before the thing that I really wanted to record at the end of this episode and that was a series of three coarse and heavy rumble strips on the road on which I was driving. These are not the rumble strips heard in Episode 35, because those are lighter and serve only is a guideline to keep people on the paved portion of the road, whereas these rumble strips are serving as reminders to the traveling public that there is a stop sign ahead in case they missed seeing the 'Stop Ahead' sign. You would have loved it, if you're into that sort of thing. Next time. so, that was what I was expecting to record for the end of the episode, but the beginning of this episode covers subscribers and whether I want them and whether they want me or my podcast. Why do I record these and upload them? Am i serious about this? do I want many subscribers? Do I want a few dedicated subscribers? What is my podcast about? well, each episode has a title that describes the content, so that's what each episode is about. What is my overall purpose, or intent? It is to talk out loud to myself, or to God, or two an imaginary person or an imaginary audience who may be interested, okay who IS INTERESTED in what I have to say and believes that my struggle for what I believe is sanity is either worthwhile or at least entertaining. And so, they listen to this episode and the one before it and the one after it. That is my intent.

6 JUL 2019 · My feelings or emotions that I'm feeling are interpreted as anger, at first, but could it be that instead I feel tired? I attempt to sort through what this is by talking out loud to myself and this turns into a philosophical slant about needing to do chores as part of daily living. If you listen long enough to this episode, you'll hear me begin 3 minute long rant about hummingbird feeders and the practice of giving free food to birds through bird feeders, instead of making them work for it by planting sunflower plants and other seed bearing plants for the birds. Towards the end of the episode, my brain shows itself to be flighty, as I scarcely begin to explain one idea before it jumps to another related idea. If you can keep up with this, that's great. This is my reason for practicing meditation, attempting to reign in my mind so that I can maintain better focus and have a greater sense of Peace in my mind. No sponsor.

5 JUL 2019 · I talk about struggling with my sanity, or rather my Insanity? Also what we do when the world seems insane. Also our sponsor The Pen reveals more about the luxury way of living and revolutionary construction method they are using for your new luxury home, the ultimate in luxury high-rise living, on the western shores of Lake Michigan in Chicago.

4 JUL 2019 · In this episode I talked about sponsors sponsorship income, who are you really working for? And other noises made by me and mother nature wild animals, so noisy environment we live in so I think you get the picture. Use your imagination as he hear the sound that I'm experiencing.