Knowing who you want to become sounds like a fantastic idea. Getting there is the endless challenge. To gather the proper sticks that will become the platform isn't always determined by your passion and loyalty but it's laid out by the process of other people's progress. You can be the absolute most brilliantly dedicated creative person on the planet and still walk into the office today feeling like you have failed at every attempt. How does this happen? Now think about that connection you have with being part of the community labeled church. Ask God into your heart and poof you are living the good life right? Not so. It's the biggest change and challenge you'll ever face. Being present in his name and glory is a series of walls meeting mountains and how did any of this begin and does it ever play out in favor of the selves we'd like to see us become. Truth is... When you give it all to Christ it's about his plans and his purpose on where you're growing and how it's going to unwrap in his name. There is glory. There are mind blowing victories. But the experience isn't like winning a bowling tournament or finally landing a pay raise. Serving God opens your heart to newer ways to walk, to talk, to build upon and deliver. It's knowing that no matter how cruddy you feel waking up on a Monday you aren't alone in the ability of turning it into a motivational moment of serving a greater being other than self. It's very hard work because it's too easy to go back to being a bystander. I love it when people write to me and talk so openly about how incredible God is and then post a message on social media that simply states "Stop talking about God. No religion." In the beginning I'd shoot back with "But what about?" That's comedy! So many walk up to that Godly line but never participate with the chalk on the soil. No judgement. I stand in question everyday and face God not always getting answers. I am a student. Willing with his way. I expect challenge and change knowing I will not face getting the answers alone.