gentlemen what's going on....serious question here....

does life ignite within you a fiery vigor to stand up with chest out, chin up
and a will to enjoy all things....

to be that fucking man that says yes to life with a grin on his face

or does the happening of life's hopscotch randomness prompt you
to grab a bottle of bourbon and plop into the dark corner of your existence...

and we often think...how can i have a fiery vigor..... for a life
that constantly throws salt onto my fresh wounds...

you know the type of wounds...the open lesion from the death of a loved one

the gaping tear in my heart from the skank that ripped it out with
no apology...of course not

and the deep puncture of a life that seemingly is just not on my fuckign side

and so we've paraded through the dark forest of life's bullshit
and thank god we clumsily and hell maybe even luckily stumbled out of its hold

and were better for itr....we seriously recognize we have more wisdom
we know some things about some things now

But are we grateful or are we bitter and pissed....

i know some guys that have more wisdom in one experience than i have in all of
my experiences combined

but they refuse to utilize that wisdom in an enjoyable manner

they instead relegate themselves into a bitter and even resentful attitude

and for me the arm chair quaterback....the keyboard ninja.....the comment section nazi

they all have some wisdom largely from personal experience i supposed...hell maybe they just
read a book,,,,but they use big words and correct punctuation so im a believer

but these guys are not living....or not enjoying life....or i dont presume

i mean i'm personally tired of living a life that only sees the flaws....the wrinkles... the errors

like an ex-gf of mine that always pointed out how wrinkled my shirt was....or
told me yes you look nice but that cologne stinks...

like bitch you bought me the cologne....

so i'm realizing that wisdom offers me the ability to to enjoy life

it through experiences...that teaches me what's important......its like the old man in
a rocking chair....dude is smiling at children playing and birds chirping

he laughs at his own jokes......and why the hell is he so happy we ask

because the man has came out the other side of life's forrest and knows that
gratitude and joy is a requirement for meaning

i could possess all the wisdom in the world but if i never learn the beauty of laughing
and joy.........have i really lived......have i really conquered anything

everybody goes into the forest of knowledge....but many return gloomy and bitter

for me its time to enjoy life with the wisdom that nothing is promised

the relationship could end, the loved one WILL die, somethings just dont work out

and these things no longer make me ANGRY...,,,,instead they make me wise and prepared

and IN that i can somehow manage to smile....

love and respect gentlemen
its okay to smile for no reason
you will hear from me next episode