17 APR 2022 · In this episode, Jen reveals why she's been behind on creating content... spoiler it has something to do with the image! Music written and (crappily) produced in Jen's bedroom. Here's a link to the book that Jen mentions (spoiler: she didn't read it)

27 JAN 2022 · So many choices.... what's a girl to do? In this episode Jen explores the feeling of having so many options. Image from The Lightseeker's Tarot Deck: 7 of Cups Musical interlude by Jen's dad, Norman. Another amazing Yiddish folk song, Glick. https://www.milkenarchive.org/music/volumes/view/great-songs-of-the-american-yiddish-stage/work/glik/#lyrics

13 JAN 2022 · The unknown can be scary... but what wonder lies ahead? "Tell me Where Can I Go" performed by my dad, Norman.

4 JAN 2022 · Change is inevitable. And it's often difficult. Join Jen as she navigates a recent "big" change in her life. This episode features another classic Yiddish track recorded by Jen's dad, Norman, in his apartment on an old "brick" style tape recorder. The song is "Di Grine Kuzine" and in pretty typical fashion, Norman made it a little medley. The lyrics for the first song can be found here... they're still appropriate... The second song has literally one lyric "Hevenu Shalom Aleichem" which means peace be upon you. The pairing of the two songs gives a peephole into the twisted humor that Jen grew up with. Photo by Jen 2012 Ooops! Jen said this is episode 15.... it's not lolz

29 DEC 2021 · This is a big one. Recorded by the Blue River in KCMO and at the facility where my mom lives. Recorded on the anniversary of one of mom's many health bounce backs. Recorded right after I made the leap to make a major change in my life. Recorded as I reclaim the meaning of these holidays... Recorded after we ate Chinese food and while Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince is playing in the background.... love and light and new year's hope for all

17 DEC 2021 · It's how we recover from the set backs and foibles in life that really show what we're made of. In this episode Jen reveals the recent challenges and the resulting delays of this episode. I'm keeping it real. Like I always do. Featuring the track "Fight" written by Jen Appell. Performed by Not Sisters (with Kristina Ning on Upright Bass). The song was an easy choice for this episode. Jen crafted the song when she found out about a downturn in a friend's battle with cancer. Depression is real. If you need help... please reach out. https://www.samhsa.gov/find-help/national-helpline

25 NOV 2021 · Happy Thanksgiving! So... The Hermit, The Hierophant and Judgement walk into a bar... and out comes The Gift of Discernment. Danielle Dulsky: https://danielledulsky.com/.... The Wandering Star Tarot (pictured): https://www.kickstarter.com/projects/wanderingstartarot/the-wandering-star-tarot-deck... Reinhold Niebuhr: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Reinhold_Niebuhr... Tips for cultivating your own attitude of gratitude: https://thriveglobal.com/stories/5-ways-to-cultivate-an-attitude-of-gratitude/

12 NOV 2021 · All of these episodes are personal but this one goes deep and extremely vulnerable. There comes a time when a person just has to speak their mind. Maybe I'm a little unhinged but pretty sure you would be too. **Also, for the record, in the second "chapter" I neglected to mention that I also addressed the affect closing has on the staff... rants take on their own life and when re-enacting one, it's hard to hit all of the points. Anywho, who's the humanest of humans? This girl. **also, explicit in this episode really means that I use harsher language than usual. nothing grotesque.

30 OCT 2021 · In this episode, Jen discusses the powerful gift of dreams and the impact on waking life. As always, Jen gets all fan girl about Danielle Dulsky: https://danielledulsky.com/ A quick article about famous people who were inspired by their dreams: https://www.rd.com/list/ideas-that-came-from-dreams/ And to be noted, this week's episode includes one of my absolute favorite songs that my Dad recorded for me on a cheap tape recorder in his apartment, a cover of "Al di La" Jen's TikTok: https://vm.tiktok.com/ZM8mU8aCq/

24 OCT 2021 · Unexpected gifts are featured in this episode centered around the gift of Jen's grandmother's china from her cousin. Through the use of the set, Jen channels a communication with her Grandmother and reminisces about her first communications with her Grandmother. More on Danielle Dulsky: https://danielledulsky.com/ The china set: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Rosenthal_(company) What Jewish cemeteries in NY look like: https://www.google.com/search?q=nyc+jewish+cemeteries&tbm=isch&chips=q:nyc+jewish+cemeteries,online_chips:queens:99AgmDxNozg%3D&rlz=1C1CHBF_enUS969US969&hl=en&sa=X&ved=2ahUKEwi8trbMp-LzAhVRs6wKHd-cCVUQ4lYoA3oECAEQGA&biw=1263&bih= 520 And here are the lyrics to the song that Dad performed in this episode: http://www.hebrewsongs.com/?song=sheynvidilevone (If I can figure out exactly which cemetery, I will update the link but this will give you the picture!)