OK so I guess I'm trying to figure out how I'm gonna finish this chapter because I did pretty much gonna be the last chapter and the book is kind of for young adults and I mean I think it should be a precursor to like an actual kind of I yes just a little I don't know what I call it I guess I called her biography but I don't want to call the biography up but I guess I really think this is more like a young adult book because I see it as something that at a point where are you can you can change the arc of your eye guess you're growing up and there's so many things that we never ask her sounds about our lives we never ask herself what should we do besides what we've already been told and I guess some reasons are because those are actually some pretty decent options and then another cases now have to find an extra meeting and so I guess of the book kind of takes a kind of straws out what I did and how I found my name and I didn't want to have a chapter about guardian angels and I need to meditate on this because I don't remember the exact words that my father chose for when he talked about it but it's always stayed with me and it's because a friend of mine had talk to me and he said that I can't say what he said the point is is that somebody can call you and change the trajectory of your life and it would probably might not know it and that's why the reason I come up with is that you should always try to bring your best self when you can because you might be the person that you know you all you did was hold the elevator open and make a quick joke in water off but I am maybe that person needed that you know sometimes we don't want them don't realize it and make it seem in better not to realize i don't know how to articulate maybe it's better not to realize that because that would be to direct I guess because some people want to let someone know but it's something that you could be like a best friend or even a acquaintance or family member either like either one type of family or a new family or anyway or son or daughter BOA EDD and that's just pay the ending I do have a section on a letter to myself which is it it's really easy to forget things even because like once you make up a stand like can you say I'm leaving you better believe something because if you don't believe in anything here that I have a very difficult life and write a letter to yourself is a good way to make you aware what you actually believe and because on the days when you're not playing your best and maybe your haven't quite found your guardian angel yet remind me to look at that letter and on those bad days I kind of put you back in better spirits and I really mean it I mean like actually have a letter like it sounds really Monday and it sounds like something anyone can think of but I can't do it myself I put it no my calendar and it's kind of up there with just kind of trying to just not give up I guess because sometimes when you're on your own and you're dealing with life can seem very like like you can be lonely at us and you like I said you better have something to believe in because that's gonna be waiting for you to drive my name and in that meaning of that's how we find out what else there is in life that we really enjoy and care about so now I just have to figure out how to put that into a chapter so that he can be something that has a flow and I feel like I should do a longer retelling of the of the actual event because I with me so I'm asking something and from there I don't really know what else I got a few paragraphs about how I find it in my life but I don't really want to talk about too many people I kind of want to just i just wanna share the what I have about that and I thought that something like this would be kind of like talked about before but it actually I don't think I've seen it too often at least not the way I describe which is kind of weird but I am yeah but how I am ok thanks I'll look at it kind of anyone of us could be a guardian angel somebody ok so that's enough of that topic now the final one is a letter to yourself so put together a letter play down what do you believe in and don't put something or you can put something like you believe in universal healthcare or something like that that's that's cool I'm trying to put things that are trying to put things that are more i guess value based in the respect that all that like you might forget you're smart you might forget that you're actually good at organizing you might forget that you're you might forget a lot about yourself that you wouldn't remember you might forget that you we're actually kind of a comedian sometimes and maybe you haven't smiled in a few months and seeing that letter you know if I step back and be like are used to believe in something so I recommend it for anybody that is kind of either starting over or they're young and they just getting ready to plan their life in there first. I recommend it just because there's gonna be days when you don't know when you don't know how your day is going to go and that's all I can say really is that how you don't always know how your day is going to go and you know those days it's not that great how are you'd like it that letters there to cheer you up 30 remind you that you know you OK so don't forget you're OK i think it's great and have a have a good day for your day