Greetings, Sister,

On the heels of our very potent and darkness-embracing portal of Dying last week, I’ve been deeply in it.

So have you.

I’ve witnessed your courageous shares of deep letting go, the angst-ridden inquiries of what/where/how to free yourself next, your wise awareness of the pieces and patterns that no longer serve.


I am honored to stand with you in the Becoming.

And…

I thought all this dying would feel better somehow. I wanted to be past it, to cross a finish line with it. To come THIS week and talk about something happier, more, um… ALIVE.

But the medicine continued to bring its wisdom. I can do nothing but pull up a chair and be its student.

It is curious, this “in between” feeling. In my experience it is expressing as a sort of general malaise.

An uncomfortable feeling of “not ok-ness” with an unclear origin or cause.

In the midst of it, my impulse is to duck and cover.  I don’t feel like I have anything to offer anyone. I want to be alone. 

Yes, I see how this is "just-like-the-plants-and-the-turn-of-the-wheel-and-here-comes-the-fallow-state" and all of that.

But, I hadn’t found my surrender to that yet.

Instead, I found myself cleaning out closets that didn’t really need it, eating too much Halloween candy, and staying in bed hours after I woke up.

So on this week’s show, I went in claiming my Truth. “I love you and I have just enough for me right now. I hope that’s ok with you.”

I showed up just to Be With You in the experience of our mutual “Meh.”

Nothing to fix or figure out. No relief to chase. Simply the comfort of Sisterhood as we felt the rough edges and peered into the abyss.
 
What happened in our Togetherness was poignant, freeing, and oh so Untamed.
 
Some moments to listen for:
(21:05) Softness, for myself, in this space
 
(11:10) The fundamental way it can never be right
 
(29:02) Letting ourselves off the hook

(42:37) New self: Old structure… How to make it work
 
POTENT DOSE: http://bit.ly/wsmr-meh

2 minute Medicine for your Soul:


Thank you for standing with me in the naked truth of where I was this week. As it turns out, many of you were standing there right along with me.
 
Join us in the Tribe to see what I mean. This is our most enlivening, raw, and real conversation so far and it continues to unfold.  Our freedom lies in our ability to ability to honor exactly where we are and exactly where we aren’t in any moment.
 
Lend your voice to the conversation, sister. We’re “meh-ing” it up over here and it feels SO much better with company.