We can at times feel utterly alone and helpless in our quest  to find our way  back  to our real true Christos "Illuminated One" or for short " I Am" natural light and true self  we are programmed in our DNA at birth. Over time we loose ourselves in our journey called life and we along that path , get lost along the way and conditioned to other peoples energy and not our own, that in of itself is why we begin to work towards an illuminated or I am mindset that we are all born with by doing the inner work to purge ourselves of negative energy or outside our norm , conditions and  levels we learn through experience.