Take a journey with me as I open the doors, windows, and closets to let out all my skeletons, my highly dysfunctional upbringing, mental health, drug abuse, domestic violence, rape, child molestation, and so much more out.I am a newly published author with 3 more books coming and many other projects, but I had no idea people needed to hear my story so badly. I published during quarantine because it gave me something to do and the response has been overwhelming. Women, men, and children have reached out to me from across the globe sobbing, asking for help, guidance, and just to give thanks for shedding light on such taboo subjects. The difference between my podcast, story, life, and book is, it is all stuff I have lived through and come out of. While I am still a work in progress (as we all should be), I didn't realize the long lasting affects my behavior and actions were affected my three amazing children and other relationships. I self sabotaged any and everything that was good because I just knew it was too good to be true. It wasn't until 4 years ago, I was diagnosed with PTSD and writing has helped me navigate those stuffed down feelings and memories and forced me to deal with my shit and now I am a human rights activists, among many other things.It is my hope that my ramblings will resonate with at least one person and give them the strength to keep pushing and know that life is always a choice and while we may not always have the best options, we always have a choice.Finally, I want my story (as tragic and graphic as it is) to reach our broken youth. My home has become the home for the wayward kids in the neighborhood and I sit back sometimes and just cry, because I used to be one of them; homeless, 17 years old with baby, forced to sell drugs, and countless other things. I have tried to commit suicide more times than I can count and God has always brought me back. So, here I am, paying it forward in the best way I know how; by being ME. I am foul mouthed, I don't care about your feelings (to an extent of course), I have a serious case a sarcasm, but I am as real as they come. So, if you like horribly, terrifying, drama filled, success stories, you've come to the right place. You do NOT have to be a product of your environment and I am living fucking proof. So, let's dig in!