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Host Vivian invites guests into honest, unfiltered conversations about life, purpose, relationships, culture, healing, and the parts we don’t always say out loud. Each episode holds space for the good, the bad, the ugly. And the grace that keeps us grounded, growing, and still believing.

Expect real stories, bold questions, practical takeaways, and moments that feel like a deep exhale. If you’ve ever loved God and still felt tired, confused, heartbroken, or in process, you belong here.

New episodes weekly.

Become a supporter of this podcast: https://www.spreaker.com/podcast/conversations-with-vivian--6859957/support.]]>enPersonal JournalsCopyright Conversations With Vivianhttps://d3wo5wojvuv7l.cloudfront.net/t_rss_itunes_square_1400/images.spreaker.com/original/68867c34946ee9f0effc3a5b22e3f24e.jpghttp://vivianokojie.comTue, 21 Jul 2026 03:59:43 +0000Conversations With VivianConversations With Vivianvivianokojie@gmail.comConversations with Vivian: Audio Series is a faith forward podcast for people living in the messy middle. Host Vivian invites guests into honest, unfiltered conversations about life, purpose, relationships, culture, healing, and the parts we don’t...
Host Vivian invites guests into honest, unfiltered conversations about life, purpose, relationships, culture, healing, and the parts we don’t always say out loud. Each episode holds space for the good, the bad, the ugly. And the grace that keeps us grounded, growing, and still believing.

Expect real stories, bold questions, practical takeaways, and moments that feel like a deep exhale. If you’ve ever loved God and still felt tired, confused, heartbroken, or in process, you belong here.

New episodes weekly.

Become a supporter of this podcast: https://www.spreaker.com/podcast/conversations-with-vivian--6859957/support.]]>falseepisodicSupport the podcast!https://www.spreaker.com/episode/when-life-flips-the-script--73080560
In this episode of Conversations with Vivian, Vivian reflects on the moments that change everything. A diagnosis. A loss. A closed door. An unexpected ending. A season that forces you to slow down, let go, and begin again.

This conversation explores the grief of losing the life you imagined, the pressure to appear strong, and the fear that an interruption means your purpose is over. It is also a reminder that while the plan may change, your story is not finished.

You are allowed to grieve the original script. You are allowed to ask questions. You are allowed to take your time. And you are still allowed to hope.

This episode is for anyone learning how to trust God in the rewrite, release what can no longer be forced, and take the next faithful step forward.

The script may have changed, but there is still more story to be written.

Become a supporter of this podcast: https://www.spreaker.com/podcast/conversations-with-vivian--6859957/support.]]>https://api.spreaker.com/episode/73080560Tue, 21 Jul 2026 03:58:20 +0000Conversations With VivianWhat do you do when life no longer looks the way you planned? In this episode of Conversations with Vivian, Vivian reflects on the moments that change everything. A diagnosis. A loss. A closed door. An unexpected ending. A season that forces you to...
In this episode of Conversations with Vivian, Vivian reflects on the moments that change everything. A diagnosis. A loss. A closed door. An unexpected ending. A season that forces you to slow down, let go, and begin again.

This conversation explores the grief of losing the life you imagined, the pressure to appear strong, and the fear that an interruption means your purpose is over. It is also a reminder that while the plan may change, your story is not finished.

You are allowed to grieve the original script. You are allowed to ask questions. You are allowed to take your time. And you are still allowed to hope.

This episode is for anyone learning how to trust God in the rewrite, release what can no longer be forced, and take the next faithful step forward.

The script may have changed, but there is still more story to be written.

Become a supporter of this podcast: https://www.spreaker.com/podcast/conversations-with-vivian--6859957/support.]]>1064falsefullhttps://www.spreaker.com/episode/you-don-t-have-to-have-it-all-figured-out--72960090
In this solo episode of Conversations with Vivian: Audio Series, Vivian explores the fear of uncertainty and the unrealistic expectation that we should have our entire lives mapped out before taking the next step.

Whether you're facing a career change, navigating a relationship, rebuilding after loss, or simply wondering what's next, this episode is a reminder that clarity often comes through movement, not before it.

Vivian shares how faith invites us to trust God one step at a time, even when the future feels uncertain. She reflects on the beauty of surrender, the freedom of releasing the need to control every outcome, and the courage it takes to keep moving when you can't see the whole path.

If you've ever felt stuck because you were waiting for the perfect plan, the perfect timing, or complete certainty, this conversation is for you.

Because you don't have to have it all figured out.

You simply have to trust the One who does.

Become a supporter of this podcast: https://www.spreaker.com/podcast/conversations-with-vivian--6859957/support.]]>https://api.spreaker.com/episode/72960090Tue, 14 Jul 2026 03:58:22 +0000Conversations With VivianWhat if the pressure to have all the answers is the very thing keeping you from moving forward. In this solo episode of Conversations with Vivian: Audio Series, Vivian explores the fear of uncertainty and the unrealistic expectation that we should...
In this solo episode of Conversations with Vivian: Audio Series, Vivian explores the fear of uncertainty and the unrealistic expectation that we should have our entire lives mapped out before taking the next step.

Whether you're facing a career change, navigating a relationship, rebuilding after loss, or simply wondering what's next, this episode is a reminder that clarity often comes through movement, not before it.

Vivian shares how faith invites us to trust God one step at a time, even when the future feels uncertain. She reflects on the beauty of surrender, the freedom of releasing the need to control every outcome, and the courage it takes to keep moving when you can't see the whole path.

If you've ever felt stuck because you were waiting for the perfect plan, the perfect timing, or complete certainty, this conversation is for you.

Because you don't have to have it all figured out.

You simply have to trust the One who does.

Become a supporter of this podcast: https://www.spreaker.com/podcast/conversations-with-vivian--6859957/support.]]>646falsefullhttps://www.spreaker.com/episode/the-fear-of-succeeding-when-the-dream-comes-with-more-responsibility--72833737 In this solo episode of Conversations with Vivian: Audio Series, Vivian explores one of the most overlooked barriers to purpose: the fear of success. Why do we delay the dream, play small, or keep waiting for the "perfect time," even after we've prayed for the opportunity?
This conversation dives into the hidden fears that often keep us stuck, from the pressure of being seen to the weight of leadership and the uncertainty of stepping into a bigger calling. Vivian also reflects on how faith calls us to trust God's preparation more than our own feelings of readiness.
If you've ever found yourself hesitating at the edge of a dream, wondering if you're capable of carrying what you've been praying for, this episode is for you.
Because your calling will always ask more of you than your comfort.
And perhaps the greatest risk isn't that your dream will fail.
It's that fear will convince you never to begin.

Become a supporter of this podcast: https://www.spreaker.com/podcast/conversations-with-vivian--6859957/support.]]>https://api.spreaker.com/episode/72833737Mon, 06 Jul 2026 01:29:23 +0000Conversations With VivianWhat if you're not afraid of failing. What if you're afraid of succeeding. Success changes things. It brings visibility, greater responsibility, higher expectations, and a version of yourself you've never had to become before. In this solo episode of... In this solo episode of Conversations with Vivian: Audio Series, Vivian explores one of the most overlooked barriers to purpose: the fear of success. Why do we delay the dream, play small, or keep waiting for the "perfect time," even after we've prayed for the opportunity?
This conversation dives into the hidden fears that often keep us stuck, from the pressure of being seen to the weight of leadership and the uncertainty of stepping into a bigger calling. Vivian also reflects on how faith calls us to trust God's preparation more than our own feelings of readiness.
If you've ever found yourself hesitating at the edge of a dream, wondering if you're capable of carrying what you've been praying for, this episode is for you.
Because your calling will always ask more of you than your comfort.
And perhaps the greatest risk isn't that your dream will fail.
It's that fear will convince you never to begin.

Become a supporter of this podcast: https://www.spreaker.com/podcast/conversations-with-vivian--6859957/support.]]>836falsefullhttps://www.spreaker.com/episode/who-am-i-becoming--72734578 "Who am I becoming?"
In this solo episode of Conversations with Vivian: Audio Series, Vivian explores the quiet, often uncomfortable journey of transformation. The seasons where you outgrow old habits, old fears, old relationships, and even old versions of yourself.
Growth is rarely glamorous. It often feels lonely before it feels liberating. It asks you to release what is familiar, trust what you cannot yet see, and believe that God is shaping you through every setback, every disappointment, and every unexpected detour.

This episode is a conversation about identity, purpose, faith, and the courage to embrace the person you are becoming, even when the process feels uncertain.

If you've ever felt caught between who you were and who you're becoming, this episode is for you.
Because becoming isn't about arriving at perfection.
It's about surrendering to the process, trusting God's timing, and allowing every season of your life to shape you into the person you were always created to be.

Become a supporter of this podcast: https://www.spreaker.com/podcast/conversations-with-vivian--6859957/support.]]>https://api.spreaker.com/episode/72734578Mon, 29 Jun 2026 03:39:20 +0000Conversations With VivianThere comes a point in life when you stop asking, "What am I supposed to do?" and start asking a far more important question: "Who am I becoming?" In this solo episode of Conversations with Vivian: Audio Series, Vivian explores the quiet, often... "Who am I becoming?"
In this solo episode of Conversations with Vivian: Audio Series, Vivian explores the quiet, often uncomfortable journey of transformation. The seasons where you outgrow old habits, old fears, old relationships, and even old versions of yourself.
Growth is rarely glamorous. It often feels lonely before it feels liberating. It asks you to release what is familiar, trust what you cannot yet see, and believe that God is shaping you through every setback, every disappointment, and every unexpected detour.

This episode is a conversation about identity, purpose, faith, and the courage to embrace the person you are becoming, even when the process feels uncertain.

If you've ever felt caught between who you were and who you're becoming, this episode is for you.
Because becoming isn't about arriving at perfection.
It's about surrendering to the process, trusting God's timing, and allowing every season of your life to shape you into the person you were always created to be.

Become a supporter of this podcast: https://www.spreaker.com/podcast/conversations-with-vivian--6859957/support.]]>1688falsefullhttps://www.spreaker.com/episode/closure-and-the-courage-to-send-the-message--72623378
When the apology never comes.
When the text remains unsent.
When the friendship ends without explanation.
When the person you cared about becomes a chapter you never got to finish.

In this solo episode of Conversations with Vivian: Audio Series, Vivian explores the complicated relationship we have with closure. The belief that healing requires answers, explanations, or one final conversation.

She unpacks the emotional weight of unfinished stories, the courage it takes to speak your truth, and the freedom that comes from releasing the expectation that someone else must provide your peace.

This is a conversation about friendship breakups, lost love, forgiveness, regret, unsent messages, and learning how to move forward when life doesn't offer neat endings.
Because sometimes the message isn't about changing the outcome.
Sometimes it's about honoring what was true.
And sometimes closure isn't found in the reply.
It's found in finally giving yourself permission to let go.
A conversation about courage, healing, and making peace with the chapters that never got the ending you hoped for.

Become a supporter of this podcast: https://www.spreaker.com/podcast/conversations-with-vivian--6859957/support.]]>https://api.spreaker.com/episode/72623378Sun, 21 Jun 2026 21:28:01 +0000Conversations With VivianWhat do you do when the conversation never happens. When the apology never comes. When the text remains unsent. When the friendship ends without explanation. When the person you cared about becomes a chapter you never got to finish. In this solo...
When the apology never comes.
When the text remains unsent.
When the friendship ends without explanation.
When the person you cared about becomes a chapter you never got to finish.

In this solo episode of Conversations with Vivian: Audio Series, Vivian explores the complicated relationship we have with closure. The belief that healing requires answers, explanations, or one final conversation.

She unpacks the emotional weight of unfinished stories, the courage it takes to speak your truth, and the freedom that comes from releasing the expectation that someone else must provide your peace.

This is a conversation about friendship breakups, lost love, forgiveness, regret, unsent messages, and learning how to move forward when life doesn't offer neat endings.
Because sometimes the message isn't about changing the outcome.
Sometimes it's about honoring what was true.
And sometimes closure isn't found in the reply.
It's found in finally giving yourself permission to let go.
A conversation about courage, healing, and making peace with the chapters that never got the ending you hoped for.

Become a supporter of this podcast: https://www.spreaker.com/podcast/conversations-with-vivian--6859957/support.]]>1085falsefullhttps://www.spreaker.com/episode/the-people-pleasing-trap--72528999
Why do so many of us say yes when we mean no, stay silent when we want to speak, and sacrifice our own needs to keep everyone else comfortable.

In this solo episode of Conversations with Vivian: Audio Series, Vivian explores the roots of people-pleasing, the fear of rejection that often drives it, and the emotional cost of constantly seeking approval.

She unpacks the difference between kindness and self-abandonment, why boundaries often feel guilty at first, and how authenticity requires the courage to disappoint others sometimes.
This is a conversation about identity, self-worth, and learning to stop earning love through performance.

Because freedom begins when you no longer need everyone to agree with who you are.

Become a supporter of this podcast: https://www.spreaker.com/podcast/conversations-with-vivian--6859957/support.]]>https://api.spreaker.com/episode/72528999Mon, 15 Jun 2026 04:46:28 +0000Conversations With VivianWhy is it so hard to disappoint people. Why do so many of us say yes when we mean no, stay silent when we want to speak, and sacrifice our own needs to keep everyone else comfortable. In this solo episode of Conversations with Vivian: Audio Series,...
Why do so many of us say yes when we mean no, stay silent when we want to speak, and sacrifice our own needs to keep everyone else comfortable.

In this solo episode of Conversations with Vivian: Audio Series, Vivian explores the roots of people-pleasing, the fear of rejection that often drives it, and the emotional cost of constantly seeking approval.

She unpacks the difference between kindness and self-abandonment, why boundaries often feel guilty at first, and how authenticity requires the courage to disappoint others sometimes.
This is a conversation about identity, self-worth, and learning to stop earning love through performance.

Because freedom begins when you no longer need everyone to agree with who you are.

Become a supporter of this podcast: https://www.spreaker.com/podcast/conversations-with-vivian--6859957/support.]]>1334falsefullhttps://www.spreaker.com/episode/the-people-pleasing-trap--72528988
Why do so many of us say yes when we mean no, stay silent when we want to speak, and sacrifice our own needs to keep everyone else comfortable.

In this solo episode of Conversations with Vivian: Audio Series, Vivian explores the roots of people-pleasing, the fear of rejection that often drives it, and the emotional cost of constantly seeking approval.

She unpacks the difference between kindness and self-abandonment, why boundaries often feel guilty at first, and how authenticity requires the courage to disappoint others sometimes.
This is a conversation about identity, self-worth, and learning to stop earning love through performance.

Because freedom begins when you no longer need everyone to agree with who you are.

Become a supporter of this podcast: https://www.spreaker.com/podcast/conversations-with-vivian--6859957/support.]]>https://api.spreaker.com/episode/72528988Mon, 15 Jun 2026 04:44:20 +0000Conversations With VivianWhy is it so hard to disappoint people. Why do so many of us say yes when we mean no, stay silent when we want to speak, and sacrifice our own needs to keep everyone else comfortable. In this solo episode of Conversations with Vivian: Audio Series,...
Why do so many of us say yes when we mean no, stay silent when we want to speak, and sacrifice our own needs to keep everyone else comfortable.

In this solo episode of Conversations with Vivian: Audio Series, Vivian explores the roots of people-pleasing, the fear of rejection that often drives it, and the emotional cost of constantly seeking approval.

She unpacks the difference between kindness and self-abandonment, why boundaries often feel guilty at first, and how authenticity requires the courage to disappoint others sometimes.
This is a conversation about identity, self-worth, and learning to stop earning love through performance.

Because freedom begins when you no longer need everyone to agree with who you are.

Become a supporter of this podcast: https://www.spreaker.com/podcast/conversations-with-vivian--6859957/support.]]>1334falsefullhttps://www.spreaker.com/episode/starting-over-at-any-age-who-told-you-it-s-too-late--72427693 That there is a deadline on dreams, purpose, healing, or becoming.

In this solo episode of Conversations with Vivian: Audio Series, Vivian explores the fear of starting over, the pressure of age-related timelines, and the courage it takes to begin again.

Whether it's a new career, a new relationship, a new dream, or a new version of yourself, starting over can feel terrifying. Especially when everyone around you seems settled and certain.

But what if your age isn't the obstacle.What if the real obstacle is the belief that it's too late.

This episode is a reminder that growth has no deadline, purpose has no expiration date, and some of life's most beautiful chapters begin long after you thought the story was written.

Because becoming doesn't stop at 30, 40, 50, or beyond.
Sometimes that's exactly where it begins.

Become a supporter of this podcast: https://www.spreaker.com/podcast/conversations-with-vivian--6859957/support.]]>https://api.spreaker.com/episode/72427693Mon, 08 Jun 2026 23:47:30 +0000Conversations With VivianWho told us that reinvention belongs to the young. That there is a deadline on dreams, purpose, healing, or becoming. In this solo episode of Conversations with Vivian: Audio Series, Vivian explores the fear of starting over, the pressure of... That there is a deadline on dreams, purpose, healing, or becoming.

In this solo episode of Conversations with Vivian: Audio Series, Vivian explores the fear of starting over, the pressure of age-related timelines, and the courage it takes to begin again.

Whether it's a new career, a new relationship, a new dream, or a new version of yourself, starting over can feel terrifying. Especially when everyone around you seems settled and certain.

But what if your age isn't the obstacle.What if the real obstacle is the belief that it's too late.

This episode is a reminder that growth has no deadline, purpose has no expiration date, and some of life's most beautiful chapters begin long after you thought the story was written.

Because becoming doesn't stop at 30, 40, 50, or beyond.
Sometimes that's exactly where it begins.

Become a supporter of this podcast: https://www.spreaker.com/podcast/conversations-with-vivian--6859957/support.]]>1071falsefullhttps://www.spreaker.com/episode/the-life-i-thought-i-would-have-by-now--72284489
By now, you thought you'd be married.
Or healed.
Or financially secure.
Or further along in your career.
Or living a completely different story.

Instead, life took a turn you never saw coming.
In this solo episode of Conversations with Vivian: Audio Series, we're talking about grieving expectations, embracing reality, and finding peace when your life looks different than what you imagined.

Because sometimes the hardest thing to let go of isn't a person. It's the future you thought you would have.
What's one expectation you've had to release about your life?

Become a supporter of this podcast: https://www.spreaker.com/podcast/conversations-with-vivian--6859957/support.]]>https://api.spreaker.com/episode/72284489Mon, 01 Jun 2026 20:37:02 +0000Conversations With VivianToday’s episode is for anyone whose life did not go according to plan. By now, you thought you'd be married. Or healed. Or financially secure. Or further along in your career. Or living a completely different story. Instead, life took a turn you...
By now, you thought you'd be married.
Or healed.
Or financially secure.
Or further along in your career.
Or living a completely different story.

Instead, life took a turn you never saw coming.
In this solo episode of Conversations with Vivian: Audio Series, we're talking about grieving expectations, embracing reality, and finding peace when your life looks different than what you imagined.

Because sometimes the hardest thing to let go of isn't a person. It's the future you thought you would have.
What's one expectation you've had to release about your life?

Become a supporter of this podcast: https://www.spreaker.com/podcast/conversations-with-vivian--6859957/support.]]>2162falsefullhttps://www.spreaker.com/episode/forgiveness-without-access--72157163 In this solo episode of Conversations with Vivian: Audio Series, Vivian explores the difficult but necessary truth that forgiveness and access are not the same thing.
She unpacks the guilt many people feel after setting boundaries, the pressure to reconcile at the expense of their peace, and the wisdom required to forgive without repeatedly returning to harmful patterns.
This is a conversation about healing, discernment, and learning that you can release resentment without reopening every door.

If you’ve ever struggled to choose peace without feeling cruel, this episode will remind you that boundaries are not bitterness. They are wisdom.

Become a supporter of this podcast: https://www.spreaker.com/podcast/conversations-with-vivian--6859957/support.]]>https://api.spreaker.com/episode/72157163Mon, 25 May 2026 17:14:42 +0000Conversations With VivianWhat happens when forgiveness is possible… but reconnection no longer feels healthy. In this solo episode of Conversations with Vivian: Audio Series, Vivian explores the difficult but necessary truth that forgiveness and access are not the same thing.... In this solo episode of Conversations with Vivian: Audio Series, Vivian explores the difficult but necessary truth that forgiveness and access are not the same thing.
She unpacks the guilt many people feel after setting boundaries, the pressure to reconcile at the expense of their peace, and the wisdom required to forgive without repeatedly returning to harmful patterns.
This is a conversation about healing, discernment, and learning that you can release resentment without reopening every door.

If you’ve ever struggled to choose peace without feeling cruel, this episode will remind you that boundaries are not bitterness. They are wisdom.

Become a supporter of this podcast: https://www.spreaker.com/podcast/conversations-with-vivian--6859957/support.]]>1557falsefullhttps://www.spreaker.com/episode/family-expectations-and-cultural-pressure-when-love-starts-to-feel-like-obligation-boundaries-identity-and-navigating-family-dyna--72057141 What happens when love begins to feel heavy. When family expectations, cultural pressure, and unspoken responsibilities quietly shape your choices, your identity, and your peace.

In this solo episode of Conversations with Vivian: Audio Series, Vivian explores the emotional tension many people carry within family dynamics. The pressure to always say yes. The guilt of setting boundaries. And the exhaustion that can come from constantly being the dependable one.

She also dives into African cultural expectations, particularly within Yoruba families, where sacrifice, responsibility, and respect are deeply woven into identity. From the hidden pressure of being the first born child to the expectation of becoming the family fixer, provider, or emotional support system, this episode unpacks the weight many silently carry.

This is a conversation about love, obligation, boundaries, and learning how to honor family without abandoning yourself in the process.

If you’ve ever struggled with guilt, responsibility, or the fear of disappointing the people you love, this episode will give you language, clarity, and permission to protect your peace too.

Become a supporter of this podcast: https://www.spreaker.com/podcast/conversations-with-vivian--6859957/support.]]>https://api.spreaker.com/episode/72057141Mon, 18 May 2026 15:39:06 +0000Conversations With VivianFamily Expectations and Cultural Pressure. When Love Starts to Feel Like Obligation. What happens when love begins to feel heavy. When family expectations, cultural pressure, and unspoken responsibilities quietly shape your choices, your identity, and... What happens when love begins to feel heavy. When family expectations, cultural pressure, and unspoken responsibilities quietly shape your choices, your identity, and your peace.

In this solo episode of Conversations with Vivian: Audio Series, Vivian explores the emotional tension many people carry within family dynamics. The pressure to always say yes. The guilt of setting boundaries. And the exhaustion that can come from constantly being the dependable one.

She also dives into African cultural expectations, particularly within Yoruba families, where sacrifice, responsibility, and respect are deeply woven into identity. From the hidden pressure of being the first born child to the expectation of becoming the family fixer, provider, or emotional support system, this episode unpacks the weight many silently carry.

This is a conversation about love, obligation, boundaries, and learning how to honor family without abandoning yourself in the process.

If you’ve ever struggled with guilt, responsibility, or the fear of disappointing the people you love, this episode will give you language, clarity, and permission to protect your peace too.

Become a supporter of this podcast: https://www.spreaker.com/podcast/conversations-with-vivian--6859957/support.]]>1501falsefullhttps://www.spreaker.com/episode/the-strong-friend-isn-t-always-okay--71958293 When you become the helper, the listener, the dependable one. The person people call in crisis, lean on for support, and assume is always “fine.”
In this solo episode of Conversations with Vivian: Audio Series, Vivian explores the hidden emotional weight of being the strong friend. The quiet exhaustion, the loneliness that can come from always carrying others, and the pressure to hold everything together even when you’re struggling yourself.
She unpacks why strong people often find it difficult to ask for help, how functioning can hide burnout, and why receiving support is just as important as giving it.
This is a conversation about vulnerability, emotional honesty, and learning that strength is not pretending you’re okay. It’s allowing yourself to be human too.

If you’ve ever felt like the one everyone leans on while quietly carrying your own pain alone, this episode will remind you that you deserve support too.

Become a supporter of this podcast: https://www.spreaker.com/podcast/conversations-with-vivian--6859957/support.]]>https://api.spreaker.com/episode/71958293Mon, 11 May 2026 15:17:16 +0000Conversations With VivianWhat happens when the person everyone depends on starts running on empty. When you become the helper, the listener, the dependable one. The person people call in crisis, lean on for support, and assume is always “fine.” In this solo episode of... When you become the helper, the listener, the dependable one. The person people call in crisis, lean on for support, and assume is always “fine.”
In this solo episode of Conversations with Vivian: Audio Series, Vivian explores the hidden emotional weight of being the strong friend. The quiet exhaustion, the loneliness that can come from always carrying others, and the pressure to hold everything together even when you’re struggling yourself.
She unpacks why strong people often find it difficult to ask for help, how functioning can hide burnout, and why receiving support is just as important as giving it.
This is a conversation about vulnerability, emotional honesty, and learning that strength is not pretending you’re okay. It’s allowing yourself to be human too.

If you’ve ever felt like the one everyone leans on while quietly carrying your own pain alone, this episode will remind you that you deserve support too.

Become a supporter of this podcast: https://www.spreaker.com/podcast/conversations-with-vivian--6859957/support.]]>1610falsefullhttps://www.spreaker.com/episode/motherhood-and-the-quiet-resentment--71860391
What happens when love is real… but so is the exhaustion.

When you are constantly needed, constantly giving, and quietly carrying more than anyone sees.

In this solo episode of Conversations with Vivian: Audio Series, Vivian speaks honestly about the emotional weight of motherhood. The invisible load, the unmet needs, and the quiet resentment that can build when you are pouring from an empty place.

She unpacks the tension between deep love and real fatigue, the guilt many mothers feel for even acknowledging how hard it is, and why grace is something moms often extend to everyone else but themselves.

This is not about complaining. It’s about honesty. It’s about making space for the full experience of motherhood without shame.

If you’re a mother who feels stretched, unseen, or silently overwhelmed, this conversation will remind you that you are not alone. And that your needs matter too.

Real life. Real emotions. And grace for the messy middle.

Become a supporter of this podcast: https://www.spreaker.com/podcast/conversations-with-vivian--6859957/support.]]>https://api.spreaker.com/episode/71860391Mon, 04 May 2026 16:52:18 +0000Conversations With VivianMotherhood and the Quiet Resentment. Guilt. Exhaustion. And the Grace Moms Don’t Always Give Themselves. What happens when love is real… but so is the exhaustion. When you are constantly needed, constantly giving, and quietly carrying more than...
What happens when love is real… but so is the exhaustion.

When you are constantly needed, constantly giving, and quietly carrying more than anyone sees.

In this solo episode of Conversations with Vivian: Audio Series, Vivian speaks honestly about the emotional weight of motherhood. The invisible load, the unmet needs, and the quiet resentment that can build when you are pouring from an empty place.

She unpacks the tension between deep love and real fatigue, the guilt many mothers feel for even acknowledging how hard it is, and why grace is something moms often extend to everyone else but themselves.

This is not about complaining. It’s about honesty. It’s about making space for the full experience of motherhood without shame.

If you’re a mother who feels stretched, unseen, or silently overwhelmed, this conversation will remind you that you are not alone. And that your needs matter too.

Real life. Real emotions. And grace for the messy middle.

Become a supporter of this podcast: https://www.spreaker.com/podcast/conversations-with-vivian--6859957/support.]]>2213falsefullhttps://www.spreaker.com/episode/my-partner-s-needs-my-needs--71679117
Why do the same arguments keep coming back. Different words. Same tension. Same outcome.

In this solo episode of Conversations with Vivian: Audio Series, Vivian unpacks the deeper layers beneath recurring conflict in relationships. Why most arguments are not about the surface issue, how unmet needs drive repeated patterns, and what it really takes to move from reacting to understanding.

She explores the tension between showing up for your partner and staying true to yourself, the importance of clear communication, and how to shift from trying to win an argument to actually hearing each other.

If you’ve ever felt like you’re speaking but not being understood, or loving someone but still missing each other, this episode will give you language, clarity, and practical steps to communicate differently.

Because healthy relationships are not about perfect harmony. They are about learning how to understand each other better, one conversation at a time.

Become a supporter of this podcast: https://www.spreaker.com/podcast/conversations-with-vivian--6859957/support.]]>https://api.spreaker.com/episode/71679117Mon, 27 Apr 2026 19:38:46 +0000Conversations With VivianMy Partner’s Needs. My Needs. Communication, Recurring Conflict, and Learning to Truly Understand Each Other. Why do the same arguments keep coming back. Different words. Same tension. Same outcome. In this solo episode of Conversations with Vivian:...
Why do the same arguments keep coming back. Different words. Same tension. Same outcome.

In this solo episode of Conversations with Vivian: Audio Series, Vivian unpacks the deeper layers beneath recurring conflict in relationships. Why most arguments are not about the surface issue, how unmet needs drive repeated patterns, and what it really takes to move from reacting to understanding.

She explores the tension between showing up for your partner and staying true to yourself, the importance of clear communication, and how to shift from trying to win an argument to actually hearing each other.

If you’ve ever felt like you’re speaking but not being understood, or loving someone but still missing each other, this episode will give you language, clarity, and practical steps to communicate differently.

Because healthy relationships are not about perfect harmony. They are about learning how to understand each other better, one conversation at a time.

Become a supporter of this podcast: https://www.spreaker.com/podcast/conversations-with-vivian--6859957/support.]]>2071falsefullhttps://www.spreaker.com/episode/marriage-in-the-middle--71501232 What happens after the honeymoon phase? When life gets busy. When responsibilities grow. When communication takes more effort and connection doesn’t come as easily as it used to.

In this solo episode of Conversations with Vivian: Audio Series, Vivian explores the reality of marriage in the middle. The seasons that aren’t always visible, where tension, miscommunication, and unmet expectations can quietly create distance.

She unpacks what it means to move from feelings to commitment, how small disconnections can build over time, and why choosing each other is not a one-time decision, but a continuous one.

This is a conversation about growth, humility, and learning how to love each other well in real life, not just in ideal moments.

If you’re navigating a season where marriage feels more intentional than effortless, this episode will give you language, perspective, and grace for the journey.

Become a supporter of this podcast: https://www.spreaker.com/podcast/conversations-with-vivian--6859957/support.]]>https://api.spreaker.com/episode/71501232Mon, 20 Apr 2026 20:29:06 +0000Conversations With VivianMarriage in the Middle. The Real Seasons No One Posts About. What happens after the honeymoon phase? When life gets busy. When responsibilities grow. When communication takes more effort and connection doesn’t come as easily as it used to. In this... What happens after the honeymoon phase? When life gets busy. When responsibilities grow. When communication takes more effort and connection doesn’t come as easily as it used to.

In this solo episode of Conversations with Vivian: Audio Series, Vivian explores the reality of marriage in the middle. The seasons that aren’t always visible, where tension, miscommunication, and unmet expectations can quietly create distance.

She unpacks what it means to move from feelings to commitment, how small disconnections can build over time, and why choosing each other is not a one-time decision, but a continuous one.

This is a conversation about growth, humility, and learning how to love each other well in real life, not just in ideal moments.

If you’re navigating a season where marriage feels more intentional than effortless, this episode will give you language, perspective, and grace for the journey.

Become a supporter of this podcast: https://www.spreaker.com/podcast/conversations-with-vivian--6859957/support.]]>2499falsefullhttps://www.spreaker.com/episode/when-you-outgrow-someone-you-love--71294397 When conversations feel different. When values begin to shift. When staying starts to feel heavier than letting go.
In this solo episode of Conversations with Vivian: Audio Series, Vivian explores the quiet, often unspoken reality of outgrowing someone you deeply care about. The tension of holding love and distance at the same time. The guilt that comes with change. And the courage it takes to choose growth without turning the relationship into something bitter.
This is a conversation about endings that aren’t loud, but still deeply painful. About honoring what was, while accepting what is. And about releasing people with grace, even when your heart still remembers who they used to be.
If you’ve ever felt the shift in a relationship and didn’t know what to do with it, this episode will give you language, clarity, and peace for the process.

Become a supporter of this podcast: https://www.spreaker.com/podcast/conversations-with-vivian--6859957/support.]]>https://api.spreaker.com/episode/71294397Mon, 13 Apr 2026 17:23:56 +0000Conversations With VivianWhat happens when love is still there… but the alignment isn’t. When conversations feel different. When values begin to shift. When staying starts to feel heavier than letting go. In this solo episode of Conversations with Vivian: Audio Series, Vivian... When conversations feel different. When values begin to shift. When staying starts to feel heavier than letting go.
In this solo episode of Conversations with Vivian: Audio Series, Vivian explores the quiet, often unspoken reality of outgrowing someone you deeply care about. The tension of holding love and distance at the same time. The guilt that comes with change. And the courage it takes to choose growth without turning the relationship into something bitter.
This is a conversation about endings that aren’t loud, but still deeply painful. About honoring what was, while accepting what is. And about releasing people with grace, even when your heart still remembers who they used to be.
If you’ve ever felt the shift in a relationship and didn’t know what to do with it, this episode will give you language, clarity, and peace for the process.

Become a supporter of this podcast: https://www.spreaker.com/podcast/conversations-with-vivian--6859957/support.]]>2603falsefullhttps://www.spreaker.com/episode/loving-people-who-trigger-you--71137526 Why does one comment, one action, or one pattern create a reaction that feels bigger than the moment.

In this solo episode of Conversations with Vivian: Audio Series, Vivian unpacks the reality of emotional triggers. What they are, where they come from, and why they are often connected to deeper wounds and unmet needs.

She explores the tension between loving people and protecting your peace, the role of self-awareness in healing, and what it looks like to respond with intention instead of reacting from past pain.

This is not about pretending you’re unbothered. It’s about understanding yourself, setting healthy boundaries, and choosing growth in real time.

If you’ve ever struggled to love people without losing yourself, this conversation will give you language, clarity, and grace for the messy middle.

Become a supporter of this podcast: https://www.spreaker.com/podcast/conversations-with-vivian--6859957/support.]]>https://api.spreaker.com/episode/71137526Mon, 06 Apr 2026 18:57:06 +0000Conversations With VivianWhy do some people affect you so deeply. Why does one comment, one action, or one pattern create a reaction that feels bigger than the moment. In this solo episode of Conversations with Vivian: Audio Series, Vivian unpacks the reality of emotional... Why does one comment, one action, or one pattern create a reaction that feels bigger than the moment.

In this solo episode of Conversations with Vivian: Audio Series, Vivian unpacks the reality of emotional triggers. What they are, where they come from, and why they are often connected to deeper wounds and unmet needs.

She explores the tension between loving people and protecting your peace, the role of self-awareness in healing, and what it looks like to respond with intention instead of reacting from past pain.

This is not about pretending you’re unbothered. It’s about understanding yourself, setting healthy boundaries, and choosing growth in real time.

If you’ve ever struggled to love people without losing yourself, this conversation will give you language, clarity, and grace for the messy middle.

Become a supporter of this podcast: https://www.spreaker.com/podcast/conversations-with-vivian--6859957/support.]]>1594falsefullhttps://www.spreaker.com/episode/i-m-behind-god-isn-t--71013636 Ahead in life. In career. In relationships. In purpose.
Like you missed a step somewhere. Like time is moving and you’re not.
In this solo episode of Conversations with Vivian: Audio Series, Vivian unpacks the pressure of timelines, the trap of comparison, and the quiet anxiety that comes with feeling “behind.”
She explores why that feeling may not be truth, but perception. How comparison distorts your journey. And what it looks like to trust that your life is unfolding with intention, not delay.
If you’ve been questioning your pace, second guessing your path, or feeling like you’re running out of time, this episode will remind you that late does not mean denied.
You’re not behind. You’re being prepared.

Become a supporter of this podcast: https://www.spreaker.com/podcast/conversations-with-vivian--6859957/support.]]>https://api.spreaker.com/episode/71013636Tue, 31 Mar 2026 06:39:22 +0000Conversations With VivianHave you ever felt like everyone else is ahead of you. Ahead in life. In career. In relationships. In purpose. Like you missed a step somewhere. Like time is moving and you’re not. In this solo episode of Conversations with Vivian: Audio Series,... Ahead in life. In career. In relationships. In purpose.
Like you missed a step somewhere. Like time is moving and you’re not.
In this solo episode of Conversations with Vivian: Audio Series, Vivian unpacks the pressure of timelines, the trap of comparison, and the quiet anxiety that comes with feeling “behind.”
She explores why that feeling may not be truth, but perception. How comparison distorts your journey. And what it looks like to trust that your life is unfolding with intention, not delay.
If you’ve been questioning your pace, second guessing your path, or feeling like you’re running out of time, this episode will remind you that late does not mean denied.
You’re not behind. You’re being prepared.

Become a supporter of this podcast: https://www.spreaker.com/podcast/conversations-with-vivian--6859957/support.]]>1243falsefullhttps://www.spreaker.com/episode/identity-beyond-titles--70836817
In this episode of Conversations with Vivian: Audio Series, Vivian sits down with Adebisi Onitiri to explore the deeper question of identity beyond performance, roles, and external validation.

They unpack the pressure of living through titles, the quiet identity crisis that can come with transition, and what it takes to rediscover a sense of self that is rooted, whole, and not dependent on achievement.

If you’ve ever felt lost outside of your role, struggled to separate your worth from what you produce, or found yourself asking, “Who am I without this,” this conversation will meet you where you are.

Real life. Real questions. And grace for the messy middle.

Become a supporter of this podcast: https://www.spreaker.com/podcast/conversations-with-vivian--6859957/support.]]>https://api.spreaker.com/episode/70836817Mon, 23 Mar 2026 19:50:38 +0000Conversations With VivianWho are you when the titles change. When the role ends. When the position shifts. When you find yourself in between seasons and no longer defined by what you do. In this episode of Conversations with Vivian: Audio Series, Vivian sits down with...
In this episode of Conversations with Vivian: Audio Series, Vivian sits down with Adebisi Onitiri to explore the deeper question of identity beyond performance, roles, and external validation.

They unpack the pressure of living through titles, the quiet identity crisis that can come with transition, and what it takes to rediscover a sense of self that is rooted, whole, and not dependent on achievement.

If you’ve ever felt lost outside of your role, struggled to separate your worth from what you produce, or found yourself asking, “Who am I without this,” this conversation will meet you where you are.

Real life. Real questions. And grace for the messy middle.

Become a supporter of this podcast: https://www.spreaker.com/podcast/conversations-with-vivian--6859957/support.]]>2528falsefullhttps://www.spreaker.com/episode/the-day-i-hit-my-limit--70667375 In this episode of Conversations with Vivian: Audio Series, Vivian sits down with Sarah Lamb Tirey for an honest conversation about burnout, emotional exhaustion, and the moment you realize you’ve been carrying too much for too long.
They talk about the pressure to keep showing up for everyone else, the warning signs we often ignore, and the courage it takes to pause before everything breaks. Sarah shares her personal journey of reaching her limit, what that season taught her, and how she began rebuilding her life with healthier boundaries and renewed perspective.
If you’ve ever felt like you had to be the strong one while quietly falling apart inside, this conversation will remind you that reaching your limit is not the end. Sometimes it’s the beginning of healing.

Become a supporter of this podcast: https://www.spreaker.com/podcast/conversations-with-vivian--6859957/support.]]>https://api.spreaker.com/episode/70667375Mon, 16 Mar 2026 21:03:24 +0000Conversations With VivianWhat happens when the strong one finally runs out of strength. In this episode of Conversations with Vivian: Audio Series, Vivian sits down with Sarah Lamb Tirey for an honest conversation about burnout, emotional exhaustion, and the moment you... In this episode of Conversations with Vivian: Audio Series, Vivian sits down with Sarah Lamb Tirey for an honest conversation about burnout, emotional exhaustion, and the moment you realize you’ve been carrying too much for too long.
They talk about the pressure to keep showing up for everyone else, the warning signs we often ignore, and the courage it takes to pause before everything breaks. Sarah shares her personal journey of reaching her limit, what that season taught her, and how she began rebuilding her life with healthier boundaries and renewed perspective.
If you’ve ever felt like you had to be the strong one while quietly falling apart inside, this conversation will remind you that reaching your limit is not the end. Sometimes it’s the beginning of healing.

Become a supporter of this podcast: https://www.spreaker.com/podcast/conversations-with-vivian--6859957/support.]]>3306falsefullhttps://www.spreaker.com/episode/faith-based-filmmaking-and-storytelling--70543260 In this episode of Conversations with Vivian: Audio Series, Vivian sits down with Joy Isi Bewaji, screenwriter and movie director, to explore the evolving world of faith-based filmmaking. They talk about the responsibility storytellers carry, the tension between message and artistry, and why many faith-centered films struggles to reach the younger generations.
Joy shares her journey as a filmmaker, her faith, staying true to conviction while working within a competitive industry, and her vision for storytelling that is spiritually grounded, culturally relevant, and creatively excellent.
Whether you are a filmmaker, writer, creative, or someone who simply believes stories have the power to shape society, this conversation will challenge how you think about faith, art, and influence.

Become a supporter of this podcast: https://www.spreaker.com/podcast/conversations-with-vivian--6859957/support.]]>https://api.spreaker.com/episode/70543260Mon, 09 Mar 2026 03:57:14 +0000Conversations With VivianStories shape culture. The films we watch influence how we see faith, morality, love, power, and purpose. But what happens when filmmakers try to bring faith into storytelling without losing artistic depth or authenticity? In this episode of... In this episode of Conversations with Vivian: Audio Series, Vivian sits down with Joy Isi Bewaji, screenwriter and movie director, to explore the evolving world of faith-based filmmaking. They talk about the responsibility storytellers carry, the tension between message and artistry, and why many faith-centered films struggles to reach the younger generations.
Joy shares her journey as a filmmaker, her faith, staying true to conviction while working within a competitive industry, and her vision for storytelling that is spiritually grounded, culturally relevant, and creatively excellent.
Whether you are a filmmaker, writer, creative, or someone who simply believes stories have the power to shape society, this conversation will challenge how you think about faith, art, and influence.

Become a supporter of this podcast: https://www.spreaker.com/podcast/conversations-with-vivian--6859957/support.]]>4308falsefullhttps://www.spreaker.com/episode/faith-based-filmmaking-and-storytelling--70543202 In this episode of Conversations with Vivian: Audio Series, Vivian sits down with Joy Isi Bewaji, screenwriter and movie director, to explore the evolving world of faith-based filmmaking. They talk about the responsibility storytellers carry, the tension between message and artistry, and why many faith-centered films struggles to reach the younger generations.
Joy shares her journey as a filmmaker, her faith, staying true to conviction while working within a competitive industry, and her vision for storytelling that is spiritually grounded, culturally relevant, and creatively excellent.
Whether you are a filmmaker, writer, creative, or someone who simply believes stories have the power to shape society, this conversation will challenge how you think about faith, art, and influence.

Become a supporter of this podcast: https://www.spreaker.com/podcast/conversations-with-vivian--6859957/support.]]>https://api.spreaker.com/episode/70543202Mon, 09 Mar 2026 03:39:52 +0000Conversations With VivianStories shape culture. The films we watch influence how we see faith, morality, love, power, and purpose. But what happens when filmmakers try to bring faith into storytelling without losing artistic depth or authenticity? In this episode of... In this episode of Conversations with Vivian: Audio Series, Vivian sits down with Joy Isi Bewaji, screenwriter and movie director, to explore the evolving world of faith-based filmmaking. They talk about the responsibility storytellers carry, the tension between message and artistry, and why many faith-centered films struggles to reach the younger generations.
Joy shares her journey as a filmmaker, her faith, staying true to conviction while working within a competitive industry, and her vision for storytelling that is spiritually grounded, culturally relevant, and creatively excellent.
Whether you are a filmmaker, writer, creative, or someone who simply believes stories have the power to shape society, this conversation will challenge how you think about faith, art, and influence.

Become a supporter of this podcast: https://www.spreaker.com/podcast/conversations-with-vivian--6859957/support.]]>4308falsefullhttps://www.spreaker.com/episode/closure-without-the-reply-making-peace-without-their-apology--70400959 When the text is left on read. When the conversation you needed never happens. When they move on as if nothing broke.
In this solo episode of Conversations with Vivian, we’re unpacking the quiet ache of unfinished endings. The kind where you’re left with questions, assumptions, and words you never got to say.
Vivian explores why we crave closure, how waiting on someone else’s accountability can keep us stuck, and what it looks like to reclaim your power without revenge, bitterness, or one last paragraph.
This is about choosing peace when you don’t get an explanation. Forgiveness when there’s no acknowledgment. Healing without their permission.
If you’ve been waiting on a reply that may never come, this episode will help you release it with dignity and move forward whole.

Become a supporter of this podcast: https://www.spreaker.com/podcast/conversations-with-vivian--6859957/support.]]>https://api.spreaker.com/episode/70400959Tue, 03 Mar 2026 02:02:29 +0000Conversations With VivianWhat do you do when the apology never comes. When the text is left on read. When the conversation you needed never happens. When they move on as if nothing broke. In this solo episode of Conversations with Vivian, we’re unpacking the quiet ache of... When the text is left on read. When the conversation you needed never happens. When they move on as if nothing broke.
In this solo episode of Conversations with Vivian, we’re unpacking the quiet ache of unfinished endings. The kind where you’re left with questions, assumptions, and words you never got to say.
Vivian explores why we crave closure, how waiting on someone else’s accountability can keep us stuck, and what it looks like to reclaim your power without revenge, bitterness, or one last paragraph.
This is about choosing peace when you don’t get an explanation. Forgiveness when there’s no acknowledgment. Healing without their permission.
If you’ve been waiting on a reply that may never come, this episode will help you release it with dignity and move forward whole.

Become a supporter of this podcast: https://www.spreaker.com/podcast/conversations-with-vivian--6859957/support.]]>1908falsefullhttps://www.spreaker.com/episode/friendship-breakups-cut-deep--70219816 There’s no ceremony. No public acknowledgment. No structured space to grieve. Just silence. Distance. Unfollowed pages. Unreturned calls. And a quiet ache you’re expected to get over quickly.
In today’s solo episode of Conversations with Vivian: Audio Series, Vivian opens up about the pain of losing a friend, the confusion that follows, and the kind of grief that rarely gets validated. She talks about unmet expectations, shifting seasons, boundaries, betrayal, and what it looks like to move on without becoming bitter.
If you’ve ever lost a friend and questioned your worth, replayed conversations in your head, or wondered if you should have fought harder, this episode is for you.
Because sometimes closure is clarity. Sometimes distance is protection. And sometimes dignity means walking away without dragging their name through the mud.
Real stories. Real emotions. And grace for the messy middle.

Become a supporter of this podcast: https://www.spreaker.com/podcast/conversations-with-vivian--6859957/support.]]>https://api.spreaker.com/episode/70219816Mon, 23 Feb 2026 03:56:19 +0000Conversations With VivianFriendship Breakups Cut Deep. Grief No One Validates. Moving On with Dignity. We don’t talk enough about friendship breakups. There’s no ceremony. No public acknowledgment. No structured space to grieve. Just silence. Distance. Unfollowed pages.... There’s no ceremony. No public acknowledgment. No structured space to grieve. Just silence. Distance. Unfollowed pages. Unreturned calls. And a quiet ache you’re expected to get over quickly.
In today’s solo episode of Conversations with Vivian: Audio Series, Vivian opens up about the pain of losing a friend, the confusion that follows, and the kind of grief that rarely gets validated. She talks about unmet expectations, shifting seasons, boundaries, betrayal, and what it looks like to move on without becoming bitter.
If you’ve ever lost a friend and questioned your worth, replayed conversations in your head, or wondered if you should have fought harder, this episode is for you.
Because sometimes closure is clarity. Sometimes distance is protection. And sometimes dignity means walking away without dragging their name through the mud.
Real stories. Real emotions. And grace for the messy middle.

Become a supporter of this podcast: https://www.spreaker.com/podcast/conversations-with-vivian--6859957/support.]]>2745falsefullhttps://www.spreaker.com/episode/friendship-breakups-cut-deep--70219644 There’s no ceremony. No public acknowledgment. No structured space to grieve. Just silence. Distance. Unfollowed pages. Unreturned calls. And a quiet ache you’re expected to get over quickly.
In today’s solo episode of Conversations with Vivian: Audio Series, Vivian opens up about the pain of losing a friend, the confusion that follows, and the kind of grief that rarely gets validated. She talks about unmet expectations, shifting seasons, boundaries, betrayal, and what it looks like to move on without becoming bitter.
If you’ve ever lost a friend and questioned your worth, replayed conversations in your head, or wondered if you should have fought harder, this episode is for you.
Because sometimes closure is clarity. Sometimes distance is protection. And sometimes dignity means walking away without dragging their name through the mud.
Real stories. Real emotions. And grace for the messy middle.

Become a supporter of this podcast: https://www.spreaker.com/podcast/conversations-with-vivian--6859957/support.]]>https://api.spreaker.com/episode/70219644Mon, 23 Feb 2026 03:23:21 +0000Conversations With VivianFriendship Breakups Cut Deep. Grief No One Validates. Moving On with Dignity. We don’t talk enough about friendship breakups. There’s no ceremony. No public acknowledgment. No structured space to grieve. Just silence. Distance. Unfollowed pages.... There’s no ceremony. No public acknowledgment. No structured space to grieve. Just silence. Distance. Unfollowed pages. Unreturned calls. And a quiet ache you’re expected to get over quickly.
In today’s solo episode of Conversations with Vivian: Audio Series, Vivian opens up about the pain of losing a friend, the confusion that follows, and the kind of grief that rarely gets validated. She talks about unmet expectations, shifting seasons, boundaries, betrayal, and what it looks like to move on without becoming bitter.
If you’ve ever lost a friend and questioned your worth, replayed conversations in your head, or wondered if you should have fought harder, this episode is for you.
Because sometimes closure is clarity. Sometimes distance is protection. And sometimes dignity means walking away without dragging their name through the mud.
Real stories. Real emotions. And grace for the messy middle.

Become a supporter of this podcast: https://www.spreaker.com/podcast/conversations-with-vivian--6859957/support.]]>2745falsefullhttps://www.spreaker.com/episode/my-faith-has-questions--70086562
What do you do when your faith feels complicated.
When prayers go unanswered. When obedience feels costly. When life does not match what you believed for. When you love God, but you’re tired of pretending you’re not confused.

In this solo episode of Conversations with Vivian: Audio Series, Vivian unpacks the tension between doubt and disbelief, anger and reverence, disappointment and devotion. She explores why questions are not the enemy of faith, how silence can deepen shame, and what it looks like to bring your whole, unfiltered self to God.

If you’ve ever wondered whether your hard questions make you less spiritual, this conversation is for you. Real faith. Real tension. And grace for the messy middle.

Become a supporter of this podcast: https://www.spreaker.com/podcast/conversations-with-vivian--6859957/support.]]>https://api.spreaker.com/episode/70086562Mon, 16 Feb 2026 21:48:07 +0000Conversations With VivianEpisode Title: My Faith Has Questions. Doubt, anger, and honest conversations with God. What do you do when your faith feels complicated. When prayers go unanswered. When obedience feels costly. When life does not match what you believed for. When...
What do you do when your faith feels complicated.
When prayers go unanswered. When obedience feels costly. When life does not match what you believed for. When you love God, but you’re tired of pretending you’re not confused.

In this solo episode of Conversations with Vivian: Audio Series, Vivian unpacks the tension between doubt and disbelief, anger and reverence, disappointment and devotion. She explores why questions are not the enemy of faith, how silence can deepen shame, and what it looks like to bring your whole, unfiltered self to God.

If you’ve ever wondered whether your hard questions make you less spiritual, this conversation is for you. Real faith. Real tension. And grace for the messy middle.

Become a supporter of this podcast: https://www.spreaker.com/podcast/conversations-with-vivian--6859957/support.]]>1998falsefullhttps://www.spreaker.com/episode/my-faith-has-questions--70085808
What do you do when your faith feels complicated.
When prayers go unanswered. When obedience feels costly. When life does not match what you believed for. When you love God, but you’re tired of pretending you’re not confused.

In this solo episode of Conversations with Vivian: Audio Series, Vivian unpacks the tension between doubt and disbelief, anger and reverence, disappointment and devotion. She explores why questions are not the enemy of faith, how silence can deepen shame, and what it looks like to bring your whole, unfiltered self to God.

If you’ve ever wondered whether your hard questions make you less spiritual, this conversation is for you. Real faith. Real tension. And grace for the messy middle.

Become a supporter of this podcast: https://www.spreaker.com/podcast/conversations-with-vivian--6859957/support.]]>https://api.spreaker.com/episode/70085808Mon, 16 Feb 2026 20:22:20 +0000Conversations With VivianEpisode Title: My Faith Has Questions. Doubt, anger, and honest conversations with God. What do you do when your faith feels complicated. When prayers go unanswered. When obedience feels costly. When life does not match what you believed for. When...
What do you do when your faith feels complicated.
When prayers go unanswered. When obedience feels costly. When life does not match what you believed for. When you love God, but you’re tired of pretending you’re not confused.

In this solo episode of Conversations with Vivian: Audio Series, Vivian unpacks the tension between doubt and disbelief, anger and reverence, disappointment and devotion. She explores why questions are not the enemy of faith, how silence can deepen shame, and what it looks like to bring your whole, unfiltered self to God.

If you’ve ever wondered whether your hard questions make you less spiritual, this conversation is for you. Real faith. Real tension. And grace for the messy middle.

Become a supporter of this podcast: https://www.spreaker.com/podcast/conversations-with-vivian--6859957/support.]]>1998falsefullhttps://www.spreaker.com/episode/high-functioning-but-low-inside-smiling-in-public-but-falling-apart-in-private-this-week-i-m-sitting-with-pasto--69895334 Smiling in public. Falling apart in private.

This is for the ones who keep showing up. The leaders. The helpers. The ones everyone depends on. You look strong, capable, and steady, but inside you’re tired, overwhelmed, and holding more than you admit.

In this episode, I’m joined by Pastor Tunde Idowu, founder of a nonprofit serving the homeless and an emcee who knows what it means to carry a room while quietly carrying your own weight. We’re talking about hidden burnout, emotional exhaustion, faith in the middle of pressure, and what it really looks like to ask for help.

If you’ve ever felt like you had to hold it together for everyone else, this conversation is for you.

Become a supporter of this podcast: https://www.spreaker.com/podcast/conversations-with-vivian--6859957/support.]]>https://api.spreaker.com/episode/69895334Mon, 09 Feb 2026 21:46:25 +0000Conversations With VivianToday’s episode is High Functioning but Low Inside. Smiling in public. Falling apart in private. This is for the ones who keep showing up. The leaders. The helpers. The ones everyone depends on. You look strong, capable, and steady, but inside you’re... Smiling in public. Falling apart in private.

This is for the ones who keep showing up. The leaders. The helpers. The ones everyone depends on. You look strong, capable, and steady, but inside you’re tired, overwhelmed, and holding more than you admit.

In this episode, I’m joined by Pastor Tunde Idowu, founder of a nonprofit serving the homeless and an emcee who knows what it means to carry a room while quietly carrying your own weight. We’re talking about hidden burnout, emotional exhaustion, faith in the middle of pressure, and what it really looks like to ask for help.

If you’ve ever felt like you had to hold it together for everyone else, this conversation is for you.

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Church hurt can shake more than your trust in people. It can make you question your discernment, your voice, and even God’s heart toward you. In this episode of Conversations with Vivian: Audio Series, Vivian sits with Jessica East for an honest, faith forward conversation about what happens when the place that was supposed to cover you ends up cutting you.

Together, they talk about separating God from people, navigating guilt after stepping back, and rebuilding trust without ignoring what happened. You’ll hear language for what you felt, wisdom for healthy boundaries, and hope for healing that doesn’t require pretending.

If you love Jesus but you’re wary of church spaces right now, this episode is for you. The good, the bad, the ugly. And the grace that holds it all together.

Become a supporter of this podcast: https://www.spreaker.com/podcast/conversations-with-vivian--6859957/support.]]>https://api.spreaker.com/episode/69763795Tue, 03 Feb 2026 16:47:04 +0000Conversations With VivianToday’s Episode. Church Hurt but Still Choosing Jesus (with Jessica East) Church hurt can shake more than your trust in people. It can make you question your discernment, your voice, and even God’s heart toward you. In this episode of Conversations...
Church hurt can shake more than your trust in people. It can make you question your discernment, your voice, and even God’s heart toward you. In this episode of Conversations with Vivian: Audio Series, Vivian sits with Jessica East for an honest, faith forward conversation about what happens when the place that was supposed to cover you ends up cutting you.

Together, they talk about separating God from people, navigating guilt after stepping back, and rebuilding trust without ignoring what happened. You’ll hear language for what you felt, wisdom for healthy boundaries, and hope for healing that doesn’t require pretending.

If you love Jesus but you’re wary of church spaces right now, this episode is for you. The good, the bad, the ugly. And the grace that holds it all together.

Become a supporter of this podcast: https://www.spreaker.com/podcast/conversations-with-vivian--6859957/support.]]>3586falsefullhttps://www.spreaker.com/episode/the-shame-i-don-t-talk-about--69586001 Shame has a voice. It doesn’t just point at what you did. It tries to rewrite who you are. It says you’re dirty, disqualified, and too far gone. It tells you to hide, to perform, to stay quiet, and to carry it alone.
In this episode of Conversations with Vivian: Audio Series, Vivian sits with Princess Alexis Beloved who shares a real redemption story. Together they unpack what shame tries to steal, how it shows up in everyday life, and what finally broke its power. You’ll hear the difference between conviction and condemnation, why healing can’t thrive in secrecy, and practical steps to come out of hiding safely.
If you’ve ever loved God and still felt unworthy, this one is for you. The good, the bad, the ugly. And the grace that holds it all together.

Become a supporter of this podcast: https://www.spreaker.com/podcast/conversations-with-vivian--6859957/support.]]>https://api.spreaker.com/episode/69586001Mon, 26 Jan 2026 02:57:59 +0000Conversations With VivianEpisode: The Shame I Don’t Talk About. Regret, embarrassment, and the grace to heal Shame has a voice. It doesn’t just point at what you did. It tries to rewrite who you are. It says you’re dirty, disqualified, and too far gone. It tells you to hide,... Shame has a voice. It doesn’t just point at what you did. It tries to rewrite who you are. It says you’re dirty, disqualified, and too far gone. It tells you to hide, to perform, to stay quiet, and to carry it alone.
In this episode of Conversations with Vivian: Audio Series, Vivian sits with Princess Alexis Beloved who shares a real redemption story. Together they unpack what shame tries to steal, how it shows up in everyday life, and what finally broke its power. You’ll hear the difference between conviction and condemnation, why healing can’t thrive in secrecy, and practical steps to come out of hiding safely.
If you’ve ever loved God and still felt unworthy, this one is for you. The good, the bad, the ugly. And the grace that holds it all together.

Become a supporter of this podcast: https://www.spreaker.com/podcast/conversations-with-vivian--6859957/support.]]>3140falsefullhttps://www.spreaker.com/episode/conversations-with-vivian--69585455 This is a space for real stories and the hard conversations we usually avoid. The good, the bad, the ugly. And the grace that holds it all together.
Here we talk faith in real life. Not performance, not perfection. Purpose, relationships, culture, healing, identity, and the messy middle in between.
I’m Vivian. Grab your tea, take your walk, or sit in the car a little longer. Let’s talk.

Become a supporter of this podcast: https://www.spreaker.com/podcast/conversations-with-vivian--6859957/support.]]>https://api.spreaker.com/episode/69585455Mon, 26 Jan 2026 00:59:51 +0000Conversations With VivianWelcome to Conversations with Vivian: Audio Series. This is a space for real stories and the hard conversations we usually avoid. The good, the bad, the ugly. And the grace that holds it all together. Here we talk faith in real life. Not performance,... This is a space for real stories and the hard conversations we usually avoid. The good, the bad, the ugly. And the grace that holds it all together.
Here we talk faith in real life. Not performance, not perfection. Purpose, relationships, culture, healing, identity, and the messy middle in between.
I’m Vivian. Grab your tea, take your walk, or sit in the car a little longer. Let’s talk.

Become a supporter of this podcast: https://www.spreaker.com/podcast/conversations-with-vivian--6859957/support.]]>187falsefull