https://www.spreaker.com/podcast/the-delusion-is-vast--6338437enPersonal JournalsCopyright DawnSherine Bernardhttps://d3wo5wojvuv7l.cloudfront.net/t_rss_itunes_square_1400/images.spreaker.com/original/351c79f5d426a7b258ac134a7b080e94.jpghttps://www.spreaker.com/podcast/the-delusion-is-vast--6338437Sun, 19 Apr 2026 04:22:58 +0000DawnSherine BernardDawnSherine Bernardfeeds@spreaker.comHi. This is the sequel to Dancing with Bipolar.. still bipolar...still loving God..and for real still dancing. STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER!falseepisodichttps://www.spreaker.com/episode/preserving-the-past-dave-smith-press-conference-july-9-2025--71449306e86f532d-5598-435e-9bc8-9fc0db0e013fSun, 19 Apr 2026 03:08:45 +0000DawnSherine Bernardhey getting my ducks in row as I prepare to publish the truth from December. my truth.therapidcitysentinel.comSTAY ALIVE YOU MATTER1137falsefullhttps://www.spreaker.com/episode/what-it-can-t-be-april-already--71164645e4c3c159-6f45-464e-8b3f-8cd9fd341fd3Tue, 07 Apr 2026 17:42:45 +0000DawnSherine Bernardhey. I know it's been a minute. Things are ok, not perfect or great, but look at the world. I'm upright, and maintaining the very best I know how. check out www.therapidcitysentinel.com STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER594falsefullhttps://www.spreaker.com/episode/hello-strangers--70243125]]>4809b780-218a-4ec3-aa83-3c0a54debaf1Mon, 23 Feb 2026 23:23:07 +0000DawnSherine Bernardhey I'm not going to lie I had about a month I could not upload anything and now it seems to be fixedso hi hi hi I missed you all so much I hope you've been keeping up with me on Instagram and my other socials to see that I didn't like just drop off...]]>190falsefullhttps://www.spreaker.com/episode/merry-christmas-2025--6920458449bd9c98-f285-41aa-a14f-9756fbfaecddThu, 25 Dec 2025 14:25:17 +0000DawnSherine Bernardhey. I've been trying to download a real show but the gods of WiFi aren't having it today. just know I'm thinking about you on this holiday . that way neither of us is alone.STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER84falsefullhttps://www.spreaker.com/episode/got-it--68969148d105dade-53e6-47e2-a6d5-b1a494659a25Wed, 10 Dec 2025 01:14:51 +0000DawnSherine BernardHey . So yeah it's been too long again. just want to let you all know that you are the show. Without you all I am literally talking to air. Look for me in the sports page at the Rapid City Post. 🏒💯Hit me up at : dancingwithbipolarredux@gmail.com...1038falsefullhttps://www.spreaker.com/episode/pivot-point--68291638f396b7d3-df46-42f8-86f2-22dd53583355Mon, 27 Oct 2025 01:31:00 +0000DawnSherine BernardHey. There will nearly always come a point in time where you have to evaluate if the reward is worth the effort. As Chris Reck says Is the juice worth the squeeze? In this case it's really not. I do not like being humiliated so it's Go Rogue...568falsefullhttps://www.spreaker.com/episode/infectious-happiness-is-allowed--6822100055fc5d28-2886-4a0a-95ff-8a4453e1c2f0Mon, 20 Oct 2025 22:30:02 +0000DawnSherine BernardHey. I know it's been a minute. Things are good, I'm well and there's only positive vibes coming from me at the moment. I'm so grateful for everything for real.STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER dancingwithbipolarredux@gmail.com607falsefullhttps://www.spreaker.com/episode/without-christopher-richmond-i-would-not-be-dawnsherine--677494471a1ddb71-c9a9-490a-8e5e-d74a07e18879Sat, 13 Sep 2025 22:25:38 +0000DawnSherine BernardHey. it's been a weird few days here and doing a show didn't feel right. The 5 year anniversary of Christophers suicide was Sept 11th. And I still have to remember him publicly because he was all that and more. Some infinities are bigger than others...995false335fullhttps://www.spreaker.com/episode/september--675809519c7f852f-0535-40f1-977e-5799ad93c8d8Mon, 01 Sep 2025 11:58:56 +0000DawnSherine Bernardhey kind of a messy show but I just wanted to let you all know that I'm all right . Been busy writing and doing some shadow work with that which is always fun. dancingwithbipolarredux@gmail.com STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER911false331fullhttps://www.spreaker.com/episode/red-flag-beret--67339149a47cd344-9ae0-4887-b0b2-736b9e7039c0Tue, 12 Aug 2025 01:27:02 +0000DawnSherine BernardHey... still in a pretty excessive shut down mode since the Landon Steele incident(s). Triggering a trauma in someone else to feel powerful over someone else is sociopathic. you know? otherwise Did Not win a Darwin award while indoor camping. It's...849false330fullhttps://www.spreaker.com/episode/man-of-steele-or-socks--6725369979938b87-b0d0-49f0-b906-9dec8fd3b651Tue, 05 Aug 2025 01:49:37 +0000DawnSherine BernardHey. so yeah if I wasn't living it I wouldn't believe it either. How celebrity veteran Steele is in RC is miraculous, but how he has tried to manipulate me after just being stalked in Flagstaff seems predictable. Would also go against all his medical...718false330fullhttps://www.spreaker.com/episode/this-is-not-a-fairy-tale--67184927c5e39222-eed3-4fb6-89a9-2972793fd6d1Wed, 30 Jul 2025 03:15:13 +0000DawnSherine BernardHey, reality is this is a tough little spell of time. I'm super grateful that I went through worse before so I'm wise enough to know I don't have to do this again. Painful emotions and fear shouldn't be normalized parts of a relationship ever. it's...1069false330fullhttps://www.spreaker.com/episode/the-end-of-all-things--670951698dca0b29-9a17-488d-bf53-79b0758d003cThu, 24 Jul 2025 02:33:47 +0000DawnSherine Bernardhey yes it's been a true cluster today. Be careful what you ask for you might just get it .dancingwithbipolarredux@gmail.com STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER802false329fullhttps://www.spreaker.com/episode/depression-has-come-to-visit-me-in-rapid-city--669931522f2bdb3d-466a-4022-bbd5-56e91794ad9eWed, 16 Jul 2025 04:37:55 +0000DawnSherine Bernardhey. thought it was only a weekend visit but it seems to be unpacking its bags and staying for a minute. There's a few reasons why but sleep disruptions due to my shitty upstairs neighbors is not helping at all. I'm not sure what the best solution...1030false328fullhttps://www.spreaker.com/episode/down-the-slide--66951736ca182398-314f-4883-8115-b8507a7e9031Sat, 12 Jul 2025 01:29:48 +0000DawnSherine BernardHey. I'm gonna say I'm good but truthfully i might not be good. physically I'm healthy but starting to get that underlying exhaustion that appears before the ultimate crash. Perfection is a tough standard to live up to everyday. yup. I need to be...785false328fullhttps://www.spreaker.com/episode/god-gratitude-and-judgement--6680096620402c08-4685-4bb8-ac23-cd57ad58c56eMon, 30 Jun 2025 03:19:20 +0000DawnSherine BernardHey. been a busy week of nothing but good things happening for me. I haven't lost sight of how blessed I am to have made it this far since leaving Flagstaff in April. For me to think I made it this far by myself is ludicrous and I can't forget all...1140false327fullhttps://www.spreaker.com/episode/the-reality-is-a-reevaluation-is-needed--66717981e784e672-08bd-4782-a4de-26c4dd869bfaTue, 24 Jun 2025 02:44:00 +0000DawnSherine Bernardhey. so there's been some things happening that are pretty upsetting to me. yet unclarified situations are prone to misunderstanding. Am I just being played by people. IDK. At least I can't be accused of plagerism or breaking boundaries, but...1273false326fullhttps://www.spreaker.com/episode/can-we-keep-the-triggers-to-a-minimum-please--6652251760592195-2874-48d3-9bc7-e708af1cae57Thu, 12 Jun 2025 03:33:33 +0000DawnSherine BernardHey... So everything is good. Had an experience this past weekend that triggered the hell out of me and was a stark reminder of how bad it really was in Flagstaff. I'm in no danger here as long as I don't create it. As hard as it is for me to...1238false325fullhttps://www.spreaker.com/episode/norman-and-mr-know-it-all--663772826015a3a7-3af1-4df2-a07b-6b0cd73e50b9Tue, 03 Jun 2025 01:40:46 +0000DawnSherine BernardHey. it's been a long time since I considered dating and after this experience it will be a lot longer before I ever do this again. I think AI and porn have ruined a large majority of the population in regards to real human interactions. Otherwise...1120false325fullhttps://www.spreaker.com/episode/my-life-is-back--66289731f9298a58-9095-4c5a-be21-78d07c20b34eTue, 27 May 2025 04:20:02 +0000DawnSherine BernardHey. I can't complain about anything so I won't. Things are really good right now and I'm happy again. I moved in, writing about hockey for the Rapid City Post and feeling settled. Plus the Canes won in a shutout tonight. I couldn't ask for more....1173false323fullhttps://www.spreaker.com/episode/until-the-walls-come-tumbling-down--661371558813b4c0-dc2f-4135-ab44-54cd560d4a16Sun, 18 May 2025 06:41:24 +0000DawnSherine Bernardhey. just a quick check in. therapy went well today but it's still triggering. Guess I'm going to have to go through it to get through it to closure. At least the stalking didn't kill me. A few thoughts on being a Rapid City Rush season ticket...1550false222fullhttps://www.spreaker.com/episode/mania-is-back--660954957d1399b1-79ec-461a-83e8-de6ae68f9f7dThu, 15 May 2025 03:08:33 +0000DawnSherine BernardSo being hotel bound for weeks is playing games with my mind. mania is better than depression but not by much. ultimately I'm safe though and I guess that was the goal in leaving Flagstaff. I sought help for my bipolar through Brightside online...1690false221fullhttps://www.spreaker.com/episode/south-dakota-is-home--659618871a334210-867b-45ab-9a18-3343298476afWed, 07 May 2025 03:03:34 +0000DawnSherine BernardSo after a disasterous start in South Dakota at Horse Shit Resort I reached out for help. 988 is a literal life line. The people that I've met on my path, the VA and military personnel have rallied around me in a way I never knew existed. I am...1774false220fullhttps://www.spreaker.com/episode/this-learning-curve-sucks--657522356b8eab31-0c8b-42bb-adb1-645411ae209fSat, 26 Apr 2025 23:56:09 +0000DawnSherine BernardHey so today has been awful. Being called deceitful and being put on "probation" is not what I'm about at all. Having people jump to all the wrong conclusions says more about them than me. I don't have a problem walking away from being a liability....934false219fullhttps://www.spreaker.com/episode/buckle-up-buttercup--65642655d2ffeaa4-e82a-421c-a86e-e326210c983dSun, 20 Apr 2025 15:06:32 +0000DawnSherine Bernardhey. so I made it to South Dakota. I talk about shitty the trip was. NEVER RIDE GREYHOUND!!! How Sir almost didn't make it, but did and how this transition is going. yeah it's not easy. but I'm not a quitter. This is the last show about the...1184false219fullhttps://www.spreaker.com/episode/i-hope-to-forget-the-traumas-of-n-1st-st--65450498857a3197-d987-4340-a0e0-1c2eb8dcb29bWed, 09 Apr 2025 05:42:21 +0000DawnSherine Bernardhey.. so the more things change they stay the same? yeah not so sure of that. Things are quickening as the date of my departure gets closer. it isn't bittersweet at all. Sunday can not get here fast enough. Shout-out to Knife Hoarder 🧡🦭🧡. STAY...950false217fullhttps://www.spreaker.com/episode/new-olympic-sports-for-arizona--653441315e12bb45-fc3a-47f2-aa55-d06937e19128Fri, 04 Apr 2025 03:54:47 +0000DawnSherine BernardHey. this is straight up filler until the next great show. there was a huge pedo sting in Flagstaff and I definitely feel some way about it. I'm sure you all know what that is. just a few more reflections on my disdain for Arizona and how unhappy I've...920false216fullhttps://www.spreaker.com/episode/reflections-on-chaos--6524614006eeaac5-56eb-4f93-b842-d238fbbb8e09Mon, 31 Mar 2025 03:53:44 +0000DawnSherine BernardHey there. A longer ramble than expected but whatever lol The move is closer every minute. Excited and glad to get the Hell out of here and out of AZ. so there's just some final closure here of things and people I never want to deal with again....1151false215fullhttps://www.spreaker.com/episode/everything-matters--65091570e43210b3-4e28-4610-8c13-8ce9c7b2839bTue, 25 Mar 2025 01:04:58 +0000DawnSherine Bernardhey. so another person I loved has officially moved on up to Heaven. I'm kind of ok with this one though seeing I already mourned them in Feb when the family jumped the gun on announcing their death. yeah it's f'd up. Also Im quitting the devil's...834false114fullhttps://www.spreaker.com/episode/lucky-13--650413478112034f-9e46-4d2a-937b-bd96c336ba9aSun, 23 Mar 2025 04:09:23 +0000DawnSherine Bernardhey just a quick check in. Things are good and still on course. stalking is unnoticeable lately which is also good. I remember someone lost too young and shout out someone saved on time. 21 Days to go until I board the big dog to SD. STAY ALIVE YOU...879false113fullhttps://www.spreaker.com/episode/lucky-13--65045115e09189fb-51cc-4eaf-8cbf-d9e474eda9c8Sun, 23 Mar 2025 03:50:08 +0000DawnSherine Bernardhey just a super quick check in. a remembrance of a life lost too soon. RIP John Ulibarri.. long live Bandit Canyon. and a shout out to someone doing the next right thing on YouTube. I'm good. the stalking is unnoticeable at this time Thank God...879false113fullhttps://www.spreaker.com/episode/no-sad-fishing-here--6490331219b8bbbb-ecb3-4e2a-8c0d-5886d154d537Sat, 15 Mar 2025 17:42:50 +0000DawnSherine Bernardhey all y'all... So I am making the changes I've been talking about. By mid April Flagstaff will be a recent memory and all this stalking and civil rights violations will be a file folder full of betrayal. I'm looking forward to my Resort Summer in...1262false112fullhttps://www.spreaker.com/episode/and-the-beat-goes-on--64494163e0f5f787-5f3a-4b49-ae70-bf23a2287bafFri, 21 Feb 2025 12:12:05 +0000DawnSherine Bernardhey. it's been a minute.. Hope you all are good and positive. Things aren't perfect here but I'm still upright and full of fight. Being Stalked is hard as Hell it is war. #flagstaffstalking I'm gonna be free of this soon so hang around. My new...1317falsefullhttps://www.spreaker.com/episode/hey-guess-what--63606139a076a95e-d699-4e5d-8995-dfb379d0182bTue, 07 Jan 2025 21:02:45 +0000DawnSherine BernardHey There everyone. it's been a minute and was hoping the premise of the show could change but for now it's still #flagstaffstalking heavy. I will be using my experience to enact positive change though. And now that I have support with the attorney...1069falsefullhttps://www.spreaker.com/episode/i-want-to-be-elected--626229724486999f-87d8-48ad-acd1-ff7c81923674Tue, 05 Nov 2024 13:05:05 +0000DawnSherine BernardHello. election day 2024 in the US. This could change everything or absolutely nothing.. it's all about perspective. Love all Y'all. STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER1169false19bonushttps://www.spreaker.com/episode/the-calm-before-becalmed--62533419103990dc-0d82-419a-854a-30ccd359848bMon, 28 Oct 2024 17:38:14 +0000DawnSherine Bernardhey. this is really just a quick Hi. I'm still alive obviously and I'm all right though still in a crap situation. I'm definitely not giving up and neither should you. STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER968false18fullhttps://www.spreaker.com/episode/getting-out-of-the-fear--62414294122b94f8-4d08-4cc3-8b1d-b7c2f120d6b9Fri, 18 Oct 2024 17:08:33 +0000DawnSherine Bernardhey. ok. I'm finally starting to get back in the right frame of mind. shit is still happening but f them for real. I got stuff to do In this life and maybe just maybe outing this situation was key in my moving forward and hopefully helping you find...1052false17bonushttps://www.spreaker.com/episode/how-i-got-here-being-stalked-in-flagstaff-az--6236071129bff773-2a91-4526-8e24-b43b0ee3248bMon, 14 Oct 2024 13:32:24 +0000DawnSherine Bernardgood morning. I was so triggered on the last show. I didn't even realize how much until I woke up quasi non triggered this morning. I literally made this show for myself to recap how this started before people start trying to change the truth to make...1205falsefullhttps://www.spreaker.com/episode/not-my-first-rodeo--62353777e2ba051d-e07e-42ac-94b7-09784839d6a1Mon, 14 Oct 2024 00:00:09 +0000DawnSherine Bernardhey... talk some about the Atmosphere show here in Flagstaff AZ.. More on the stalking and how everything is actually tying together though it's extremely uncomfortable at the moment but I'm not going down by a long shot.. This is a ramble but...1156false15fullhttps://www.spreaker.com/episode/i-m-no-martyr--6227813371cf1f93-0e9d-4f64-bc55-e4354c0bb444Mon, 07 Oct 2024 16:15:34 +0000DawnSherine Bernardhey. This kind of exploded from no where but I guess catharsis is good. I mention the new song but I can't figure out how to add it with Spotifys new shenanigans. I'll just post it solo dolo I guess so the moneys not wasted.. anyway prayers for the...1064false14fullhttps://www.spreaker.com/episode/one-degree-of-separation--6227813425e20170-c22e-48d9-ade1-76f22609957bTue, 01 Oct 2024 16:46:24 +0000DawnSherine Bernardhey everyone. well isn't this a fun time to be alive. for real I talk some about my past abuses, being trafficked and raped in 2020 and how I'm traversing the world now that sexual abuse is being talked about. Everyone is a victim of the culture that...1036false13fullhttps://www.spreaker.com/episode/trying-to-find-a-balance--622781382d1c2f5f-ce75-45d3-8ca5-b29491dea959Fri, 27 Sep 2024 00:04:44 +0000DawnSherine Bernardyes I did steal the title from an Atmosphere song. you should listen to it 😊. Otherwise im riding a wave of vicarious vindication through the media . still triggering though. STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER1090falsefullhttps://www.spreaker.com/episode/what-is-going-on-out-there--62278136e49cd427-aaa8-41c9-9bfd-c32dddd1d597Wed, 25 Sep 2024 00:05:22 +0000DawnSherine BernardHi, Welcome to The premiere episode of The Delusion is vast. I couldn't think of a better time to start my new podcast than now when the world is crazy. STAY ALIVE YOU MATTER1110falsefullhttps://www.spreaker.com/episode/welcome--62278137049171ee-7149-4bdd-ac32-b33ea4239daaFri, 09 Feb 2024 01:38:32 +0000DawnSherine Bernard38falsetrailer