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I started this podcast to document my experiences and raise awareness. My partner is well-liked, successful, and does not show his abusive side to most people in his life. As his intimate partner, I receive the brunt of his abuse and neglect. Narcissistic abuse is isolating and hard to understand, especially if one has not experienced it. Sharing my story is cathartic. My hope is that this helps increase understanding of how this abuse shows up in real life. Thank you for listening.]]>enMental HealthCopyright Seeking Catharsishttps://d3wo5wojvuv7l.cloudfront.net/t_rss_itunes_square_1400/images.spreaker.com/original/bbba780cb4f927e7def5224fced89165.jpghttps://www.spreaker.com/podcast/seeking-catharsis-a-real-victim-s-chronicles-of-covert-narcissist-abuse--4969335Tue, 13 Sep 2022 12:25:03 +0000Seeking CatharsisSeeking Catharsiscatharsisseeking@gmail.comEveryone is talking about the rise of narcissism and narcissist abuse but there is still very little information available about covert passive-aggressive narcissistic abuse and the neglectful narcissist. I am currently experiencing this abuse and I...
I started this podcast to document my experiences and raise awareness. My partner is well-liked, successful, and does not show his abusive side to most people in his life. As his intimate partner, I receive the brunt of his abuse and neglect. Narcissistic abuse is isolating and hard to understand, especially if one has not experienced it. Sharing my story is cathartic. My hope is that this helps increase understanding of how this abuse shows up in real life. Thank you for listening.]]>trueepisodichttps://www.spreaker.com/episode/episode-27-maintaining-safety-in-an-unsafe-environment--49796242https://api.spreaker.com/episode/49796242Sat, 14 May 2022 14:23:27 +0000Seeking CatharsisI’m this episode, I cover how I keep myself emotionally and physically safe while continuing to work with my abuser.2321domesticviolence,empowerment,isolation,marriage,mental-health,narcissisticabuse,npdabuse,ptsd,relationships,safetyfalsefullhttps://www.spreaker.com/episode/episode-26-happy-anniversary--49609729https://api.spreaker.com/episode/49609729Sun, 01 May 2022 00:01:38 +0000Seeking CatharsisMy spouse invites me out to celebrate our anniversary with a dinner. It was anything but happy.2194domesticviolence,emotional-abuse,marriage,mental-health,narcissisticabuse,npdabuse,relationships,spousal-abuse,toxic-relationshipsfalsefullhttps://www.spreaker.com/episode/episode-25-i-finally-quit-couple-s-therapy--47987737https://api.spreaker.com/episode/47987737Sun, 19 Dec 2021 20:24:09 +0000Seeking CatharsisAfter years of wishful thinking, my husband finally made it clear to me that he never intends to change his harmful behavior towards me. I pulled the plug on therapy just one week before our second anniversary, deciding instead to focus on my...2627domesticviolence,marriage,mentalhealth,narcissistic-abuse,npd,psychopathy,relationships,therapy,toxicrelationshipfalsefullhttps://www.spreaker.com/episode/episode-24-why-i-told-my-mentor-about-the-abuse--47839830When I finally worked up the courage to tell someone outside of my personal circle about what I am experiencing, I felt a sense of relief.]]>https://api.spreaker.com/episode/47839830Wed, 08 Dec 2021 18:09:44 +0000Seeking CatharsisAdmitting the presence of abuse is scary. When I finally worked up the courage to tell someone outside of my personal circle about what I am experiencing, I felt a sense of relief.When I finally worked up the courage to tell someone outside of my personal circle about what I am experiencing, I felt a sense of relief.]]>2577abuse,domesticviolence,marriage,mental-health,narcissism,narcissisticabuse,npd,relationships,toxicrelationshipsfalsefullhttps://www.spreaker.com/episode/episode-23-spending-thanksgiving-alone--47655696https://api.spreaker.com/episode/47655696Thu, 25 Nov 2021 17:58:15 +0000Seeking CatharsisSometimes, the holidays can make us nostalgic. This year I am spending Thanksgiving alone for the second time in a row. While being alone can sometimes lead to feelings of loneliness, I’ve found that there is safety in solitude.804grateful,healing,isolation,mental-health,npdsurvivor,relationships,survivor,thanksgiving,wellnessfalsefullhttps://www.spreaker.com/episode/episode-22-couple-s-therapy-round-4--47155380https://api.spreaker.com/episode/47155380Tue, 26 Oct 2021 03:04:15 +0000Seeking CatharsisCouple’s therapy is often not recommended when abuse is present in a relationship. I’m this episode, I discuss why I decided to try it one last time.1818abuse-recovery,domesticviolence,mental-health,narcabuse,narcissism,relationshipsfalsefullhttps://www.spreaker.com/episode/episode-21-oh-the-double-standards--47112174https://api.spreaker.com/episode/47112174Sun, 10 Oct 2021 09:20:00 +0000Seeking CatharsisIn this episode I discuss some examples of double standards in my relationship and how it makes life more challenging.2034control,financial-abuse,inequity,marriage,mental-health,narcabuse,narcissistic-abuse,relationshipsfalsefullhttps://www.spreaker.com/episode/episode-20-hello-financial-abuse--46725034https://api.spreaker.com/episode/46725034Tue, 28 Sep 2021 13:39:08 +0000Seeking CatharsisFinancial abuse is one of the least discussed elements of intimate partner abuse. For me, it is one of the core reasons I have been unable to leave the relationship. In this episode, I provide one example of how money is used to control and shame me.2541abuse,control,finances,independence,ipv,marriage,mental-health,narcissism,npd,relationshipsfalsefullhttps://www.spreaker.com/episode/episode-19-recharging-on-love--46694664https://api.spreaker.com/episode/46694664Wed, 15 Sep 2021 16:07:00 +0000Seeking CatharsisSpending a month with a loving couple reminded me of what was possible. It provided the support and reinforcement I needed to prepare for my return to the city where my emotionally negligent husband lives. I noticed key behavioral changes in my...1856domestic_violence,healing,ipv,mental_health,narcissism,narcissistc_abuse,neglect,npd,psychopathy,relationships,self-lovefalsefullhttps://www.spreaker.com/episode/episode-18-languishing-in-purgatory--46468696affected my self-esteem, my hopes and dreams, and caused me to question if I will ever experience happiness or joy again.]]>https://api.spreaker.com/episode/46468696Mon, 30 Aug 2021 00:28:00 +0000Seeking CatharsisIn this episode, I break down how I feel inside. I express in detail how my experiences have affected my self-esteem, my hopes and dreams, and caused me to question if I will ever experience happiness or joy again.affected my self-esteem, my hopes and dreams, and caused me to question if I will ever experience happiness or joy again.]]>1480abuse,catharsis,depression,domesticviolence,mentalhealth,narcissistic,npd,relationships,sadnesstruefullhttps://www.spreaker.com/episode/episode-17-feeling-trapped-isolated--46468613I reflect on the past year of abuse, neglect, manipulation, as I struggled to
regain my independence and find a pathway out of the chaos I had found myself in during
a global pandemic.]]>https://api.spreaker.com/episode/46468613Mon, 16 Aug 2021 00:20:00 +0000Seeking CatharsisAfter a year of nearly living in complete isolation away from everything I knew, I reflect on the past year of abuse, neglect, manipulation, as I struggled to regain my independence and find a pathway out of the chaos I had found myself in during a...I reflect on the past year of abuse, neglect, manipulation, as I struggled to
regain my independence and find a pathway out of the chaos I had found myself in during
a global pandemic.]]>2050abuse,betrayal,covertabuse,domesticviolence,mentalhealth,narcissisticabuse,npd,psycopathy,relationshipsfalsefullhttps://www.spreaker.com/episode/episode-16-what-boundaries--46163429pushed my boundaries. Prior to his betrayal, I had strong feelings about cheating and reconciliation. Suddenly, I found myself agreeing to a situation I would have never imagined with him.]]>https://api.spreaker.com/episode/46163429Sat, 07 Aug 2021 23:26:00 +0000Seeking CatharsisIn this episode I discuss how my spouse slowly pushed my boundaries. Prior to his betrayal, I had strong feelings about cheating and reconciliation. Suddenly, I found myself agreeing to a situation I would have never imagined with him.pushed my boundaries. Prior to his betrayal, I had strong feelings about cheating and reconciliation. Suddenly, I found myself agreeing to a situation I would have never imagined with him.]]>1703abuse,covert,infidelity,manipulation,mental_health,narcissistic-abuse,psychopathy,relationships,toxicfalsefullhttps://www.spreaker.com/episode/episode-15-living-with-a-neglectful-narcissist--45895975https://api.spreaker.com/episode/45895975Sat, 03 Jul 2021 23:02:00 +0000Seeking CatharsisIn this episode, I describe how it feels living with a covert passive-aggressive person with narcissistic tendencies.2082abuse,abuse-recovery,covert-abuse,domesticabuse,emotional-abuse,mental-health,narcissisticabuse,neglect,relationships,toxic-relationshipsfalsefullhttps://www.spreaker.com/episode/episode-14-emotional-rollercoaster-intermittent-reinforcement--45588794https://api.spreaker.com/episode/45588794Mon, 28 Jun 2021 14:55:00 +0000Seeking CatharsisIn this episode, I detail how emotional abuse manifests itself in my day-to-day life with my partner. I describe how my partner uses intermittent reinforcement and its effects on my psyche.1440abuse,addiction,covert-narcissist,domestic-violence,emotional-abuse,isolation,mental-health,narcissism,narcissist,neglect,npd,relationshipsfalsefullhttps://www.spreaker.com/episode/episode-13-the-grab-back-aka-hoover--45502957https://api.spreaker.com/episode/45502957Fri, 25 Jun 2021 00:30:00 +0000Seeking CatharsisAfter finding the strength to break away, my husband finally makes concessions that make me hopeful about the prospect of potentially repairing our relationship.1823abuse,manipulation,mental-health,narcissistic-abuse,neglect,npd,optimism,relationshipsfalsefullhttps://www.spreaker.com/episode/episode-12-love-starved-intimacy-anorexia--45459363https://api.spreaker.com/episode/45459363Thu, 24 Jun 2021 11:19:00 +0000Seeking CatharsisResearch and curiosity led me to realize I was married to a someone incapable of feeling empathy for me or providing true intimacy. I start setting boundaries to protect my sanity.2408abuse,apathy,deception,indifference,infidelity,isolation,love-starved,neglect,npd,psychopathy,relationshipsfalsefullhttps://www.spreaker.com/episode/episode-11-mind-reading-narcissism--45458964https://api.spreaker.com/episode/45458964Wed, 23 Jun 2021 17:21:00 +0000Seeking CatharsisI reflect on the time when less than three hours after confessing to adultery, my partner accuses me of having blinders on for not reading into his passive-aggressive behavior in the years leading up to our marriage.2639abuse,adultery,apathy,deception,emotional-abuse,gaslighting,mental-health,narcissism,npd,projecetion,psychological-abuse,psychopathy,relationshipsfalsefullhttps://www.spreaker.com/episode/episode-10-revisionist-history-gaslighting--45458493https://api.spreaker.com/episode/45458493Wed, 23 Jun 2021 16:06:00 +0000Seeking CatharsisIn the episode, I look back at some of the accusations my husband had made, accusing me of pressuring him and rushing into our marriage. Although the facts did not match the accusations. I spent months defending myself to him, while he avoided taking...2143abuse,confusion,deception,domestic-violence,gaslighting,manipulation,narcissistic-abuse,npd,psychopathy,ptsd,smearing,traumafalsefullhttps://www.spreaker.com/episode/episode-9-traumatized-in-therapy-pathologized--45458566https://api.spreaker.com/episode/45458566Tue, 22 Jun 2021 19:19:00 +0000Seeking CatharsisFor the first time since we met, my husband starts to reveal how he feels about our relationship and intimacy with his romantic partners. He called our relationship traumatic, blamed our relationship for some of his biggest mistakes, and insinuated...1993abuse,apathy,blameshifting,confusion,domesticviolence,emotional-abuse,isolation,mental-health,narcissistic-abuse,npd,psychopathy,ptsd,relationships,traumafalsefullhttps://www.spreaker.com/episode/episode-8-hidden-abuse-suffering-in-silence--45458231https://api.spreaker.com/episode/45458231Tue, 22 Jun 2021 12:25:00 +0000Seeking CatharsisComing to terms with the reality that I am a victim of abuse by someone, who at one time, I believed was the kindest person I had ever loved. This episode discusses the challenges and isolation of having to suffer in silence because speaking my truth...877abuse,betrayal,domestic-violence,facade,isolation,misogyny,narcissistic-abuse,npd,psychopathy,shame,traumafalsefullhttps://www.spreaker.com/episode/episode-7-post-nuptial-neglect--45458156https://api.spreaker.com/episode/45458156Tue, 22 Jun 2021 00:14:00 +0000Seeking CatharsisHaving lived together for nearly half a decade, I spent my first week alone in our home for the first time, while my husband traveled with his friends and his mistress just one week after our marriage.879abuse,betrayal,covert-abuse,domesticviolence,isolation,manipulation,narcissism,neglect,npd,psychopathy,ptsd,toxic,traumafalsefullhttps://www.spreaker.com/episode/episode-6-my-husband-s-honeymoon--45458057https://api.spreaker.com/episode/45458057Mon, 21 Jun 2021 13:54:00 +0000Seeking CatharsisAfter all the brutal disclosures in week one of our marriage, my husband is on his way to his post-elopement bachelor party, with his mistress in toe. He never intended for me to find this out and when I did, he transformed into a petulant adolescent.880abuse,betrayal,covert-abuse,emotional-abuse,infidelity,isolation,narcissistic-abuse,npd,passive-aggressive,personality-disorders,psychopathy,ptsd,relationships,toxic,traumafalsefullhttps://www.spreaker.com/episode/episode-5-baiting-reactive-abuse--45457974https://api.spreaker.com/episode/45457974Mon, 21 Jun 2021 13:43:00 +0000Seeking CatharsisIn less than a week, I went from blissfully married to having my world turned upside down due to my partner’s betrayal and untimely disclosures. It was only a matter of time before I would snap. When I did, I became the villain.875abuse,betrayal,domesticviolence,gaslighting,narcissism,narcissistic-abuse,npd,psychopathy,ptsd,relationships,toxic,traumafalsefullhttps://www.spreaker.com/episode/episode-4-polyamory-or-abuse--45457874https://api.spreaker.com/episode/45457874Sun, 20 Jun 2021 13:26:00 +0000Seeking CatharsisFive days into our marriage, my husband claimed to be polyamorous. It was another brutal disclosure just days after discovering his infidelity. It was hard to imagine the situation could get worse, but this was only the tip of the iceberg.862abuse,betrayal,betrayal-trauma,domesticviolence,narcissism,neglect,npd,toxicfalsefullhttps://www.spreaker.com/episode/episode-3-devaluation-sexual-starvation--45366671https://api.spreaker.com/episode/45366671Sat, 19 Jun 2021 13:35:28 +0000Seeking CatharsisLearning my husband was having a sexual relationship with another woman after years of intimacy, affection, and attention had been withheld by him left me confused. Why would he marry someone he did not want those things with only to seek them with...853deception,infidelity,mental-health,narcissism,narcissisticabuse,neglect,notlove,npdabuse,psychopathy,self-esteem,starvationfalsefullhttps://www.spreaker.com/episode/episode-2-slow-burn-pinpointing-when-the-abuse-started--45279480https://api.spreaker.com/episode/45279480Sun, 13 Jun 2021 01:58:37 +0000Seeking CatharsisVictims of covert narcissistic abuse often don't recognize they are in an abusive relationship until years into the relationship. In my case, it took half a decade. In this episode, I attempt to discern when the abuse started in my relationship. I...855abuse,apd,covert,marriage,narcissism,narcissist,neglect,npd,ptsd,relationshipsfalsefullhttps://www.spreaker.com/episode/episode-1-newlywed-in-exile--45278779https://api.spreaker.com/episode/45278779Sat, 12 Jun 2021 23:51:27 +0000Seeking CatharsisIn this introductory episode, I open up about my unfortunate reality of being a newlywed who has fled across the country during the COVID-19 pandemic to escape emotional and psychological abuse. After several years of living with my partner, the abuse...863abuse,betrayal,healing,narcisstic,psychopathy,ptsd,self-help,traumafalsefull